Tuesday, December 04, 2007

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*我不配*

04/12/07
01.55pm

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

another greatest work by jay chou..
cheers..

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 1:59 PM|

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Monday, December 03, 2007

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*time check*




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Saturday, September 22, 2007

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*ALIVE*

22/09/07
2.50pm

wooo.. it been so long since i click on www.blogger.com to update sia.. haha.. even my tagboard is down.. aiyo.. time flies man.. 6 more months and i am out of service.. woohoo.. i guess i can count down liao.. haha.. so many things going on in my mind.. wad am i gg to do when i ORD? can i have some savings before i ORD? can i get a job when i ORD? i wan to go back to study.. it is possible? will our r/s lasts? hmm.. i guess the only person who has all the answers will be myself ba..

coming this monday and it will be our 6th month. though it is not long nor short.. i still wan to say u been a great change to my life.. i mean i am very happy being with u.. so i hope we can last.. cos i dowan this to end..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 2:54 PM|

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Monday, July 09, 2007

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

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*finally*

03/04/07
11.52pm

finally a break at last.. woo.. i keep this entry short and sweet.. nth much to write on.. happy happy i must say.. haha.. anyway.. MANU lost!!! haix.. sad case.. i tot they will win..

jus waiting for 10th to come!!!

here a link to cheer everyone up.. if u have someone in mind that u hate so much.. this is best for u..
http://x17.66c.cc/play/mi/daxiaoren.asp

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 11:52 PM|

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

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*=D*

24/04/07
12.05am

Wooo.. time flies.. it is 1 month lo.. and i love the way it is.. jus hope that this could last..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 12:08 AM|

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

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*better?*

27/03/07
11.40pm

a choice has been made..



maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:11 PM|

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Sunday, March 11, 2007

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*cough cough cough*



maRcUs` (",)





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Thursday, February 22, 2007

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*CNY is OVERRRR*




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Saturday, February 17, 2007

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*wooO*

17/02/07
02.50am

veri long nv stay awake at this hour liao.. or rather veri long nv stick to my com at this hour.. first of all i wan to congrats jing on her ROM.. haha.. at last.. u found ur right one.. den u are the fastest among us lo.. aiyo.. still remb last time u kept complaining this and that.. and now.. wad have u gt to say? haha.. anyway.. i hope to have a god son ar.. work harder.. lols..

at last.. i gt myself a new phone.. N73.. by right is N80 rite.. but den i realised that N73 prices not only stay but it increased over the months while N80 is decreasing.. some more.. N80 is no longer in the market.. they only have the internet edition.. with the WiFi? but den to think of it.. where in the hell places in singapore have WiFi? not many lo.. in e end come back to square one.. whereas N73 u can oso surf at anywhere at anytime.. using gprs la.. btw N73 camera is much betta den N80.. try it if u dun believe..

next.. valentine day is OVER.. wang ba da.. everywhere is couple.. arghh.. sometimes i do envy those old couples who held theirs hands and walk along orchard.. u dun seldom see this everyday.. or rather i dun think u will do tt in the near future.. spent the day with spending money on clothings.. haha.. BOUGHT a new puma shoe.. in GREEN.. love it.. further 10% somemore.. bought some other items like cap, slippers and couple of tees.

few more hours and it is chinese new year eve.. whoo.. and further more hours it will be chinese new year.. hong baos.. goodies.. bak kua.. peanuts.. BEERS!! lols.. but den i gt to stay away from them.. ippt coming.. haha.. cant waste my time on the training i had..

yawns.. time do flies.. soon feb will gone.. my another understudy will be coming in and i hope most of the works will be arrowed to him.. haha.. hope so la.. =p and veri soon.. my birthday will be coming.. 20th leh.. woo.. dun 4get ar.. i will remind u guys de la.. lols.. or rather friendster will remind u guys.. wa.. this entry is going to be long man.. well it been a long time since i updated lo.. so let mi be.. haha..

saw my secondary school mate in far east on valentine.. god damn it.. she changed alot.. i dun tink she can recongise mi la.. lols.. but den sometimes ppl changes.. the looks but not the character.. it will always be there de la.. cos when i went to extend my passport.. the lady was like.. "Is this you? OMG.. u change alot.." lols.. i noe.. and i am proud of it.. haha.. well done marcus..

ok la.. shall end here.. happy ZHU lian.. to all my zhu peng gou you.. Happy Chinese New YEar!!! those who are married.. pls be auto.. haha.. happy holidays..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 2:52 AM|

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

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*neng bu neng.. ke bu ke yi..*

23/01/07
10.20pm

woo.. is a draw.. s'pore always win at msia ground.. but not this time.. we shall see in s'pore ground..

I AM JUST LIKE A PROSTITUTE.. MAYBE WORSE!!! PROSTITUTE STILL CAN SAY NO.. BUT CAN I? arghh.. i wan a holiday!! i wan to be on leave!!

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:25 PM|

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

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*hmm.. shag ar..*

18/01/07
11.40pm

busy busy busy.. these are the only words tt is surfacing in mind now.. woo.. i need a holiday.. SOON!!! catch of breath.. anyway been trying to work out for my next ippt.. yesh ar.. lols..

it been a year my 2 idiots came into my family.. and now.. they are like 2 gigantic pigs.. greedy, lazy and hopeless.. but den they still walk through my ups and down.. wad LOVE? wad relationship? and wad friendship? "if u love someone, learn to put things down.. " true? i think is bullshit!! wad put down? if she / he is meant to be urs.. they will be urs.. no worries.. it the waiting time that hurts the most..

it is just like boiling water.. u noe.. it start off with warm.. den slowly hot.. den boil n boil n boil until there is no water to boil.. den steam.. until the kettle cant tk it anymore.. it jus explode.. use this logic with relationship.. look how same they are.. and i agree..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:31 PM|

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

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*many many things i want to...*

07/01/07
6.15pm

caught the one last dance.. it was quite a show i mus say.. make mi almost fall asleep.. haha.. u shld noe wad kind of comments i wan to gif le rite? lols.. anyway.. it is a local production.. alot of places showed u can actually guess where it is.. but anyway.. xu ruo xuan is kinda of pretty.. but kinda of wasted.. cos of the.. aiya.. *find out urself* anyway.. from the title.. there is alot of things i wished to do this year.. like meeting up wif all my old fren.. gathering.. it would be nice.. u noe.. have a meal, chat, movie or a event.. haha.. few more days to 10th!!! =p



maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 6:16 PM|

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Monday, January 01, 2007

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*first day of the new year*

01/01/2007
10.40pm

woo.. it is 2007!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!! another year has passed.. have you guys wondered how well ur 2006 has gave u? so wad do u wan for this year 2007? caught 2 movies recently..



it is death note 2.. the last name.. guess? it is LIGHT lo.. and u will nv believe who wrote down his name.. but den it is worth the money..



Night at the museum.. haha.. a funny movie indeed.. dumb dumb.. where's my gum gum? haha.. if u haven caught this movie.. den i think u betta get going asap..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 10:45 PM|

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

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*season greetings..*

24/12/06
3.02pm

haha.. MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! LONELY LONELY CHRISTMAS!!! lols.. presents presents? =x

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 3:01 PM|

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

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*on leave*

10/12/06
1.10pm

yawns.. phew.. at last.. it is time for mi to rest.. woo.. almost 2 weeks.. no works.. no cases.. no ips.. jus relax and rest.. haha.. alots of things i wanted to do.. mus work out a activities list for myself during these few days.. haha.. anyway.. i finish watching the "tian wai fei xian" le.. it is the so called first serial show that had so many deaths.. quite tragic in e end.. but even though di gua and xiao qi did get married and even had a child.. they were only allowed 100 days.. quite sad ar.. wad will u do if u left wif 100 days wif ur loved ones.. wad will u do? it been pondering all over my mind.. wad more.. DEATH NOTE 2 is coming soon.. VERI SOON!! haha.. CHRISTMAS COMING!! Tian liang yi hou..







maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 1:15 PM|

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

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*some theory*

02/12/06
2.10pm

yawns.. manage to replenish my slp these few days.. been addicted to channel u 7pm show.. i think lin yi chen is veri cute.. haha.. =p

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 2:15 PM|

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Friday, November 24, 2006

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*love story?*

24/11/06
10.45pm

woax.. it been a while since i ever click on "create new post" haha.. anyway.. i been busy.. as usual.. dun blame mi.. blame on the organisation.. lols.. anyway gt my new spec in.. so my workload is kinda of divided already.. but they still nid mi to guide him along.. well it is made beri clear to him that.. one learn through mistakes.. so i told him.. "just do.. dunno jus ask.." haha.. simple.. i learn mine through this way.. manage to book out quite on time this week ba.. thx to him.. =x

hmm.. come the headache part.. i really dunno wad to do.. i think i am doing smth wrong.. smth beri guilty which i think i shld not carry on.. i guess it is best for us to remain as fren.. u shld think for urself.. r u doing smth correct? i mean.. to mi.. fren are much more impt.. i would not wan u to lose a fren jus bcos of mi.. i really hope u can understand..

taken frm my fren's blog..
There was an email a few years back circulating around about relationship being like a piece of blank paper. Both of you start with a clean sheet of paper and initially both of you will be happily writing a story on it. Over time, one may be tired and write less and the other party has to put in effort and fill in the space. Sometimes, it might be the other way round and one party have to compromise or give in or put more effort to ensure the words keep flowing. If either one party chooses to stop writing or chooses to write on another piece of paper, the story just can't go on. It's as simple as that.

One weakness of us gals is our tendency to be too analytical and "calculative". Eg, "I put in this much and much into this relationship, he should love me this much much.!" And when the relationship ends, we'll be mourning and pondering over all our efforts and time spent on the guy, what we did wrong, why is she better than me and how can he leave me when i did so much and sacrifice so much for him! Love is not an equation where a+b=c , or in love terms, what you put in should be matched by the amount he puts in as well.

Guys understand that and are more practical. When a relationship doesn't work out, they are able to let go and are just eager to find a replacement so that life will goes on as usual and they don't have to suffer the pangs of loneliness , still have a companion and a warm body in bed. While girls will be burdened with the all the " Whys Whys whys" and deep analysis from the beginning of the relationship to end, and why and where it has gone wrong. We are not able to accept the reality that we placed our chips on the wrong bet and instead, waste more of our precious time analysing and mourning on a matter that is already a fact, which doesn't serve any purpose at all. I haven't seen any cases of a guy turning back cos he's touched by the fact the gal he ditched is mourning and waiting for him. If he does turn back, most likely is the new gal ditched him or the pasture is just not as green as he thought it was, and he's just grazing back at your pasture till he finds what he thinks is a greener one. ( in that case, why do you need this kind of guy for?)

Learn to be more light hearted and with less expectation in love. If you are together with someone you love/like and the feeling is mutual, enjoy the relationship as it goes along. But don't put all your eggs in one basket and expect a lifelong of undying love and declaration. Things change, people change. He and you will change as time goes along. If both of you are not changing in the same direction, both of you won't be on the same highway to the same destination. Always love yourself and take good care of yourself.

If you don't even love yourself, how do you expect other people to love you?

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:51 PM|

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

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*covenant*

05/11/06
7.50pm



woo.. time flies.. i watched my second movie.. haha.. hmm.. convenant.. not a bad movie nor a gd movie.. haha.. jus average show to spend ur 1 and a half hour wif ur 9 bucks.. lols..

it is actually abt these 4 guys with supernatural powers.. but the more they use the faster they get older.. but came a guy with the same supernatural power but more powerful than them.. he wanted their powers too.. exciting ar.. the gals there are more exciting too.. lols..



it is their birthday!! haha..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 7:57 PM|

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Saturday, October 28, 2006

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*death note*

28/10/06
9.25pm









one cool, the other cute.. a battle between the two brains.. who is smarter? who is turning evil? who is going to win? who are you going to support? how i wish i had that book.. a great show indeed.. it is not the end yet.. i am starting to like apples.. lols.. looking forward to 10th of every months.. haha..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 9:34 PM|

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

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*holiday!!!*

24/10/06
1.25pm

his name is qiang. qiang is wheel-chair bound due to a accident which cause his lower part of his body paralysed. even though he is wheel-chair bound, he still lives his life to the fullest. on his vacation, he met a girl by the name of ling at a beach resort. he saw the girl was very unhappy. so he went up to the girl and start introducing himself. told her about his life story and how he gt into this state. ling was shocked. she wondered how can a person after going through so much can be so happy and at the same time with no worries. qiang replied to her, "whatever happens life still goes on.. so why choose to be sad when you got a choice to be happy?"

the girl smiled. at the same time, the girl told him her story. ling went out with 2 of her best friends. they met with a car accident. her 2 best friends were killed in the accident but not ling. what makes her more guilty was that she was the driver. qiang told himself, "i got to help this lady to overcome her guilt." for the next few days, qiang showed ling around the island. very soon ling forgot about her past and they soon fall in love.

there was one day, qiang called ling up. qiang told ling "i understand that you have put the past behind you but i know you still have not overcome your fear." qiang wanted ling to drive him around. ling hesitant a for moment but after qiang's persursation, ling decide to drive qiang around. at the beginning it was a slow ride but very soon ling felt comfortable with qiang sitting beside her. so she stepped on it. it came to a junction where a trunk came right across of them. ling pulled the brake and it was so close to another accident. ling suffered minor cuts on her forehead but qiang was in coma.

the doctor told ling, "qiang's condition now has worsen. the sudden shock had cause his whole nervous system to break down and he might be paralysed the upper body too." ling couldn't take the facts. she lost her 2 best friends, she doesn't want to lose another one anymore.

after a few days, the doctor approached her again. he told her "i am doing a scienific cells experiment now but it hasn't tested proven for humans yet." ling was overwhelmed. she wanted the doctor to test the experiement on her. the doctor told her that it was dangerous as he did not know what was the side effects at that point of time. ling pleaded the doctor to help them. the doctor then injected the bactericas into her body and the results showed that it actually can speed up the recovery process by 1000 times. the doctor then withdraw some of her blood and inject into qiang's body.

true enough qiang recovered fast and can even walk with walking stick. he went around looking for ling. qiang searched everywhere. he even went back to the beach resort where he met ling. he appraoched everyone with a picture of ling. finally she saw a old lady cleaner. he went up to her and asked, "have you seen her before?" the old lady looked up into qiang's eyes and said "if your girl knows that you are doing this, she will be very happy!" qiang replied to her "i just hoped to see her one last time."

the old lady cleaner walked away with tears in her eyes, "well you just did." - a name tag on her blouse printed "LING"

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 1:36 PM|

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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

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*you are a real ass*****

10/10/06
9.10pm

i wasn't suspose to do duty last nite.. but wad to do.. i was being arrowed.. anyway i could feel the 'qie' aura coming for my next 1 year.. this is how the "they" works.. anyway.. i not suspose to blog anything abt "them" so keep it short.. i feel like taking basic diving.. gt this urge.. haha.. kinda of expensive.. 400 plus.. my god.. almost of my pay.. when can i start to count down?

love for the sake of loving? or love for the sake of her? sick and tired of r/s..

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 9:10 PM|

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Sunday, October 08, 2006

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*how do u hold on to someone when u are getting sick and tired*

08/10/06
9.40pm

it beens days since i updated le.. getting busy and lazier.. foreva mi.. smth tt cant be changed.. haha.. anyway.. these few days the haze has been so bad tt i did not even occur to mi tt it will affect mi.. i gt nose block, sore throat and a slight fever.. sound serious? i feeling much better after PENTY PENTY of rest.. replenish my slp will be my fav pastime.. haha.. anyway i saw her and qy tt day.. she is doing fine..

i would really like to hold your hands again..







maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 9:46 PM|

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Saturday, September 30, 2006

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*lost*

30/09/06
8.45pm

i am really lost.. i duno wad to do.. it seem that both way are incorrect.. sometimes i really wonders how u r doing.. as always u will keeps things to urself.. i really hope u are doing fine.. cherish wad u have now..

My Valentine

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
you're all I need
my love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heartUntil the end of time...
You're all I need
my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 8:55 PM|

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

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*yawns.. another day has pass..*

27/09/06
09.00pm

i found this somewhere in the net.. kinda of amusing.. but i agree to some of it.. haha.. 19 ways to keep a girl?

1. DON'T FORCE HER TODO ANYTHING. [She won't trust you if you do & it'll beawkward]
2. Grab her hand when you walk next toeach other. [She always gets butterflies when you doit; it makes her feel you want her]
3. When standing, wrap your arms aroundher. [It makes her feel you really love her.]
4. Cuddle with her. [She'll feel you are there for her]
5. Hug her from behind [It makes her feel special]
6. Write little notes. [She smiles. They're cute; The end]
7. Compliment her Honestly. [No girl likes a liar and no girl likes a personwholies about it when you compliment her]
8. When you hug her, hold her in yourarms as long as possible. [It makes her feel wanted]
9. Be super sweet to her. [All girls like a super sweet guy]
10. Call her at night to wish her sweetdreams. [She'll go to bed with a smile]
11. Comfort her when she cries. [She'll feel you'll ALWAYS be there for her]
12. Wipe away her tears [It'll show you'll always be there]
13. Love her with all your heart. [Not with your brain... or your dick]
14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it). [It's true boys!]
15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her).[Every girl loves a guy who is a gentleman]
16. DON'T let your friends talk trash abouther, it'll get back 2 her [& it'll make her feel like you aren't reallythere for her]
17. Take her for a long walk at night! [She just wants to be alone & that's notalways bad. The world can be annoyingsometimes & you just need to be alone.]
18. When it's cold outside hold her close [You want her to be happy & she's happyin your arms]
19. Draw on or rub her back as she is tryinto rest or sleep [This just feels good HAHA! not with a pen you idiot, with your finger]

haha.. maybe for ur info.. guys..

maRcUs`(",)

| yawns @ 9:08 PM|

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

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*getting slacker and slacker each day..*

26/09/06
3.25pm

time flies.. and i am so busy this week.. wed we are conducting live run.. den we going to have a basketball tactics sharing session.. and the game is on thursday.. wad a gd help.. and guess wad.. they put mi in the first 5.. zzz.. den thursday nite we are having unit 40th anniversary dinner.. not forgetting that i gt duty to do in fri.. everything jus put together for mi.. thanks ar..

i duno wad happening.. but my face is getting numerous counts of pimples.. arghh.. this does not pose a prob to mi last time.. BUT IT DOES NOW!!! anyway i went to CHECK!! ways to prevent and treat pimples.. i found this quite useful so i decided to share.. if u are having a pimples now.. haha.. =x

• Wash your face at least twice a day with warm water and a mild soap made for people with acne. Gently massage your face with circular motions - don't scrub, which can cause skin to become irritated. After cleansing, the American Academy of Dermatology (AAD) recommends applying an over-the-counter (no prescription needed) lotion containing benzoyl peroxide. (dun ask mi.. i duno wad the fark it is..)
• Don't pop pimples! Popping can cause your skin to become red, inflamed, infected, or scarred. Also, popping pimples can push infected material further into the skin, leading to more swelling and redness. (they call it itchy hand..)
• To keep bacteria at bay, don't touch your face with your fingers or lean your face on objects that collect sebum and skin residue like the telephone receiver. Also, remember to wash your hands after eating and before applying anything to the face, such as makeup. (gals.. pls read!!)
• If you wear glasses or sunglasses, make sure you clean them frequently to keep oil from clogging the pores around your eyes and nose. (well i dun wear glasses..)
• Keep pillowcases, sheets, and blankets clean by washing them often. This gets rid of the dirt, dead skin, and oil that build up on them at night. (MOM!!! it is time..)
• If you get acne on your body, try not to wear tight clothes, which don't allow skin to breathe and may cause irritation. You also might want to stay away from scarves, headbands, and caps, which can collect dirt and oil, too. (erm.. applies to ladies?)
• Remove your makeup before you go to sleep. When buying makeup, make sure you choose brands that say "noncomedogenic" or "nonacnegenic" on the label. Throw away any old makeup (especially mascara) that smells or looks different from when you first bought it. (ladies again..)
• Drink plenty of water. Water helps flush out impurities and keeps your skin healthy. (roger.. but beers counted?)
• Keep hair clean and out of your face to prevent additional dirt and oil from clogging your pores. (no issues.. my hair is short..)
• Depending on your skin type (oily, dry, or a combination of both), you can choose different soaps and moisturizers to fit your needs. If your skin is generally oily, try using oil-absorbing astringents or other skin care products with benzoyl peroxide that help to kill bacteria and dry up pimples. If your skin is on the dry side, invest in an oil-free moisturizer that's been formulated for dry skin. Combination skin is a little trickier, so look for products formulated for this skin type. (ROGER!!)

hope all this will help in decreasing ur poka dots.. haha..

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 3:34 PM|

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

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*you nv knew wad i found out*

23/09/06
11.20am

well.. quite a few days since i logged in.. as usual kinda of busy these few days.. i gt my atp on the line.. did not manage to get 200 dollars but manage to go hm early.. haha.. anyway.. i was quite amazed by the accuracy of LAD.. awesome.. i gt full for the night shoot.. maybe partially thanks to her.. ok back to my topic.. TITANIC is back.. it is the present.. guess wad.. JACK is ALIVE!!! and he is coming to the present.. kinda of shock rite.. watch n u will understand..

Titanic 2 : the surface






maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 11:23 AM|

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Monday, September 18, 2006

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*monday blues*

18/09/06
10.45pm

haha.. at last i gt some time for u.. getting more n more busy each week... tml i be doing duty.. zzz.. hate to slp over there.. chilling cold.. i dun wish to grow up.. happy birthday zell..

you dun have to smile by chance.. but you have a choice..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:54 PM|

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

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*mo sheng ren*

10/09/06
9.55pm

"i c.. glad to c tt u r doing fine.. hopefully 1 day we can come out together lo.." do i still wait or carry on.. everything seems to be so blur to mi.. i nid some 1 to show mi the way.. how abt u?

gt to go back tml jus bcos if u.. __

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:10 AM|

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

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*wtf*

07/09/06
10.22pm

hey wtf man.. why i gt so many works to do.. fark.. saturday burn.. cheez.. fark you man..

Practices makes perfect..
But no one is perfect..
So why practices?

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:29 PM|

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Monday, September 04, 2006

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*yawns*

04/09/06
08.45pm

haix.. monday monday blues.. start off wif a 2.4km run.. kinda of tiring running at tt kinda of pace.. anyway.. played some games.. =x everything went as normal.. in the noon i had my sar21 imt.. quite fun and easily if u did play the silent scope in the arcade.. haha.. end my day wif a tired body and mind.. hmm.. i changed i blog song if u have noticed.. it is 曹格 - 不浪漫的家伙. hope u will like it like i do.. =x

Happy Birthday Bee Hong!!

歌手：曹格
歌曲：不浪漫的家伙

多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我
我担心一杯红酒
把我的真心透露
或许你早就该懂
冰淇淋在喉咙
能多冷静几秒钟
气氛在浪漫都不够
烛光晚餐像一场美梦
想这样望着你到永久
一束玫瑰交到你的手中
这一天这一刻这一切
你属于我
多想要留住这一秒钟
你每天晚餐都陪我
美味比不过你温柔
从此以后我爱你你爱我
多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我
我不是个浪漫的家伙
却甘心为你这样做
想要什么都跟我说
从此以后我爱你你爱我
我是不是有一点别扭
从不曾这样说出口
太多的愿望在心中
重要的是我爱你你也爱着我...

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 8:53 PM|

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Saturday, September 02, 2006

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*arghh*

02/09/06
12.15pm

arghh.. even if u are bigger fark den mi.. u still have to ask for my consent.. it is suspose to be my off day.. nb.. fark up system..

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere
You are thinking of me too
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow
I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world
I'd rather be than here in my room,
dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me and
I wonder if you know I'm there
If you look in my eyes would see me
what's inside Would you even care
As I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day to have the courage to say
How much I love you, yes I do
I'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
Still can't believe that you came up to me
And said I love you I love you too
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight,
till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room,
dreaming with you endlessly..

maRcUs`(",)


| yawns @ 12:23 AM|

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Monday, August 28, 2006

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*i am always here*

28/08/06
9.35pm

been real busy for the past 2 wks with our 40th aniversary.. so many stuffs to do.. jus the parade alone is enough to kill us.. haix.. i tink i nid a break..

i duno the reason why i kept tinking of u almost every night.. i duno the reason why u wan to leave.. and i duno the reason if i still have the chance.. but i noe the reason how much i love u..

if i can choose again.. my choice will be you again..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 9:43 PM|

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

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*IO marcus*

17/08/06
9.55pm

time flies.. been serving for almost 6mths liao.. finally after 3mths.. our passing out in no.3.. the feeling cant be compared to bmt still but i still feel we had done to achieve wad we deserve.. i duno if i am ready for my posting.. hope everything goes smoothly.. it is not easy being an IO.. anyway thx for the past 3 mths instructors, my mentors..

with high authority comes with high responsility

Pride
Discipline
Honour

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:03 PM|

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

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*woOoo*

13/08/06
6.20pm

had lots of fun last nite.. wonderful.. going to miss some of u man.. the finale.. passing out parade!!! every1 jus deserve the wearing the black bersha..
i jus felt u were beside mi every nite..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 6:31 PM|

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Friday, July 14, 2006

--

*fark spiderssss*

14/07/06
10.00pm

fark spidersss.. the common language used in the army.. if not i ask u to fly kite.. another boring wk has past.. this wk.. was damn siong.. nex wk it will be farking siong.. nex nex wk it will be damn farking siong.. haix.. i not sure if i can make it in 1 piece.. anyway i dun really feel like writing any stuffs.. i jus share wif u some funny comic strips..

maRcUs` (",)






| yawns @ 10:09 PM|

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

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*full of aches n blisters*

09/07/06
3.30am

been wks since i updated.. well.. i am doing great n fine.. i can say tt i am happy wif my unit.. right now i am on course maybe tt explains y i am so busy.. there alot of stuffs to learn.. really.. and i feel damn shag out each book out.. made a few frenz and most of my commanders were all friendly.. Pride, Discipline, Honour

everything happens for a reason.. things don't happen for nothing..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 3:36 AM|

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

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*god-damn it..*

18/06/06
3.55pm

fark it.. i am not in a farking good mood.. but hu cares.. damn it.. woke up n saw a msg which i wish i nv had seen.. she is attached.. n the person is a farking flirt.. she noe abt it.. i jus couldn't understand wad the fark she is tinking.. maybe i jus cares too much.. or maybe i am waiting for her to come back.. or maybe it is one-sided love.. but.. i jus dowan her to get hurt.. haix.. why things had to turn out this way.. why? i nv did anything wrong.. why must u punished mi this way.. left mi alone.. tinking.. how are you? wad are you doing? are you late for work? did you went hm last nite? sometimes.. it will get so painful in nite tinking back tt my pillow is wet.. i jus couldn't control.. how i wish u were jus beside mi.. i still loves u..

lost.. lost BIG time.. czech n ghana was a farking kelong match which i couldn't stop cursing n swearing.. maybe you guys can kick for your OWN country not for the farking MONEY!!! anyway if not for the money.. i wouldn't be betting.. -.-" i jus hope tml will be different.. hope my cash wun fly away.. but come in more members.. world cup fever is driving mi mad.. real mad..

2 more nights to go.. and i gt to report to mowbray camp where my 2nd stage of ns come.. frm punggol to yew tee.. *shakes heads* i rather stay in.. maybe nex time you guys wouldn't wan to see mi.. or maybe you wan mi to be the 1 putting the cuffs for u.. haha.. jk.. hopefully the trainning will not be so tough.. all the best marcus.. you can do it..



maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 4:07 AM|

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Friday, June 16, 2006

--

*posting result*

16/06/06
5.20pm

well.. gt my posting results.. i am quite happy wif my posting.. haha.. i am going to be a military police.. it is going to be a 8-5 job i heard.. this is going to be too good 4 mi as i am planning to use the 2 years studying.. gd luck to those going sispecs and ocs.. haha.. all e best..

meet up wif 4 of my platoon mates and 2 of my fren.. we caught silent hill at cathay.. it was so farking COLD.. this show was based on the story line of a game.. in the end.. the mother n her kid were still living in darkness.. i tink my 8 bucks was not wasted.. i could say the show was nice, touching and scary.. cos parents are the god in every kids' eyes..

suddenly last nite.. she came up into my mind..



maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 5:27 PM|

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

--

*farking french..*

15/06/06
2.20pm

haix.. this world cup is driving mi nuts.. first of all.. fark u france.. make my 4 blue notes fly jus like tt.. secondly.. well done spain.. i am proud of u.. haha.. brazil and germany is a let-down.. thirdly.. Ecuador n Sweden dun let mi down.. PLS!!

enough of swearing and cursing.. not 4getting praying.. i tink my body getting weaker n weaker.. i did went jogging the last few days.. i could not even run constantly for 25 mins and i start having sitches.. haix.. si bei jia lat.. stamina going down!!

last nite.. J came and fetch mi to serangoon for prata n the germany match.. u will nv guess wad he drove.. a FAIRLADY!!! n i was sitting in the front sit.. *shakes head* he is god damn farking rich.. losing 1 or 2 k is not a prob to him.. -.-" sometimes i really wonder my company is a white horse company.. enough abt him b4 i start hitting myself in the chest..

oh ya.. well i upload a song here already.. hope u guys find it familiar n nice.. ni shi wo de xin fu ma?



maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 2:35 PM|

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

--

*at last..*

10/06/06
3.10pm

at last.. i finally caught a movie!!! Almost Love.. it has months since i watched 1.. went to the cathay and watch.. the place looks like a ghost town to mi.. not many of the shops are ready.. the storyline was funny at first but it gets touching towards the end.. Kim Ha-neul kinda of cute.. gt the chance to meet up wif kelly.. bought a addias jacket at left foot, a pair of levis jean for only 40 BUCKS!! kinda of a bargain.. she bought a pair of jean too for 20 bucks.. -.-



my movie list:

- cars
- benchwarmers
- mission impossible 3
- she's the man
- x-men 3

oh ya.. have you wondered y these few days it jus keep rainning? those ppl in tekong must be enjoying their cat 1.. haha.. anyway.. any 1 watched the world cup last nite? germany and costa rica.. if u still blur.. the score was 4-2.. germany victory.. jus as i tot.. but costa rica did play beri well last nite.. i mus admit.. if not.. it will be a tarshing game.. haha.. some advices for the punters.. dun go overboard.. oh ya.. N80.. i coming to get u!!

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 3:17 PM|

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

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*pte marcus ee*

07/06/06
10.25pm

POP!! waited for 4 mths.. finally the day has come.. the end of BMT!!

- 7 days field camp

- BIC

- sit tests

- live range

- grenade live throw

- BAC

- IPPT

- 24km route march

from recurits to privates.. the start of a new journey.. now we could count down to ORD!!! lets the pictures take over..

- BRONCO 02/06 BMT (PTP) LEADERSHIP -

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:40 PM|

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

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*last book out*

04/06/06
2.15pm

well.. time flies beri fast.. this weekend will be my last book out.. and oso this coming wed is my POP day.. i am beri excited to wad is coming next.. the second stage of the ns life where i will spent the last 1 and a half year.. went drinking wif my fren last nite.. i tink i will miss them.. like i miss my bros.. it is fun living in tekong..

talking abt the graduation parade.. we gt scoldings and punishment from ssm.. cos we test the system.. beri jia lat.. we are the first company doing tt.. i tink we create history.. BRONCO COMPANY - 11 March 06 batch

tinking back.. i tink i gt alot of stuffs waiting for mi to finish.. i jus hope i can get into provost..

Lastly here some pictures of us doing 24km route march..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 2:21 PM|

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

--

*trying to wake up..*

21/05/06
11.55pm












maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 12:08 PM|

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

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*wo hui hao hao guo*

13/05/06
6.33pm

if one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.

**********************************************

If one day you want to run away-
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you.

**********************************************

If one day you don't want to listen to anyone...
Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.

**********************************************

But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.

**********************************************

If 1 day u need me,
just think for me,
i will always be with u.

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 6:46 PM|

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Friday, May 12, 2006

--

*Fever & Cough*

12/05/06
7.55am

I nid a doc.. badly.. Recently, i found out tt my body was getting weaker n weaker each time when we came back frm outfield.. i duno y.. the last field camp i had a bad cough.. n this sits test i gt myself a fever + cough.. the most farking thing i wan to curse n swear is tt the MO does not wan to gif mi attn C. fark him.. __ i was really sick.. i jus nid some proper rest at hm.. 1 or 2 days will do.. but this farker gave mi 7 days attn B. wtf.. i gt a range nex wk.. sometimes i jus feel like giving them a piece of my mind if not for the 3 golden stripes.. the best part? they did not even gave mi any cough syrup.. jux purely painkillers.. *shakes head*

ok.. enough of my sickness.. getting sick n tired.. well, i finish my 12km RM in a farking hot weather.. we stop 3 times.. n most of the pits stop was not even in shade.. PLUS at each times we jus gt abt 5 mins of rest nia.. enough to drink water n refill nia.. i dunoo how i did it.. but i did it.. for the last 2km.. it was unbearing.. i feel like falling out.. but i jus kept tinking abt her.. went through in my mind how i chase her.. getting together.. going out.. everything.. i even though of her being beside mi holding my hands.. pushing mi on.. OMG.. i was bascially daydreaming.. it was farking tiring.. i dunno how am i going to finish my 24km..

"why are you here?"
"sir, fallen out"
"wad is the prob?"
"sir, i having a fever"
"go n tk ur temp now.."
after taking the temp..
"wad your temp?"
"sir, 37.6 deg"
"farking spyders.. do u tink u can continue?"
"yes sir.. no prob"
"i fark u.. go n get ur field pack n go n report sick"
- guess hu said to mi?

went back to the sits test area to help out.. i duno y ar.. ppl like to look at each others when they were asked for volunteers.. n eye power doesn't help to move the stuffs.. i really gt nth to say abt these fragots..

went through some of my stuffs.. saw the pics we took when we went sentosa.. i jus cant tk the fact tt she gone.. real gone.. i jus had to move on.. she will lived in my memories.. my brothers.. i really miss them veri much.. i am real sorry guys..

3 more weeks to POP!!!

maRcUs`(",)

| yawns @ 7:52 AM|

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

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| yawns @ 5:39 PM|

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

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18/12/05
12.30am

*=D*

you are getting out of shape already ar.. SLIM DOWN!!!

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 12:46 AM|

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

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*BORED*

07/12/05
11.20am

WAH!! I AM SO GOD DAMN BORED!! lols.. hmm.. christmas is coming.. have u ever wondered? how many fren u have? how many fren u intending to buy present to? haix.. 4 mi.. is like.. nvm.. anyway pay out.. went scouting on my off day to look for addias jacket.. but i could not find any tt is to my liking.. BUT.. i saw this nike jacket.. not bad.. quite nice.. haha.. went far east. bought myself a shirt.. not bad.. but 42 bucks.. not beri worth it.. nowadays beri beri the busy.. work ar.. den no time to update.. will update beri soon..

i promise i will cherish this time..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:17 AM|

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

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*untitled*

21/11/05
11.40pm

well.. there is only 1 word to describle my days.. "SIANX" ar.. bth ar.. ji tao boring.. oh ya.. first of all.. Happy Birthday Quek!! haha.. hope u enjoy the ktv and the pool.. beri long nv c u le.. but ni shi ke yi de.. jia you.. ok.. abt my work.. today warehouse came.. n i was clearing the stocks.. ALONE!! haha.. den i found out tt my storeroom is overload liao.. so i decided to transfer some to ps.. SOME ar.. haha.. in e end.. i packed 2 full cartons of bags today nia.. still gt apparrels.. so i tink after fully packed, it will be 3 full cartons of stocks to ps.. *WINKS* machiam requisition frm warehouse.. haha..

looking forward to the ktv outing.. haha.. i hope it turns out smoothly.. haha.. oh ya.. N70 is CHIO!! haha.. i decided to get tt.. lols.. or any 1 wish to be my santa? hee.. haix.. pay ar pay.. faster ar faster.. slow sia.. den i oso wan to get a addias white polo shirt.. nice.. plus my long waited jacket.. oh ya.. not forgetting my levis 523 jean.. haha.. christmas coming.. cfm gt alots of sales n offers de.. *WHILE STOCKES LAST* haix.. pocket duno how many holes liao..

ur birthday coming.. n i still not beri sure myself if i wan to join ur fren.. even though the blah blah.. it doesn't pulls mi.. haha.. c how.. still gt days to come.. =x ok.. i shall stop here le.. my noodles waiting for mi at the table.. lols..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 12:03 AM|

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Monday, November 14, 2005

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*i miss my bros!!!*

14/11/05
11.25pm

finally.. gt time for u le.. these few days i been kinda of tired after working so turn in once i reached hm.. works has been kinda of lots of mi.. the pullbacks going on.. den the upcoming christmas packages r driving mi mad.. haha.. requisition too.. haix.. i really miss those days when i am in J8.. haha.. Jayce there to chat wif mi.. zi guo n sarah craps wif mi.. xiao qi's jokes to keep mi awake.. the most of all.. i MISS THE FOODS AT BISHAN!!! haha.. but now i am ALONE at OG.. doing everything to keep time running.. hmm.. ok la.. enough of my work thingy..

i miss my bros.. been mths since i saw them.. going to meet them for KTV soon.. SOON!!! haha.. i gt alots of things to COMPLAIN!!! haha..

is it so hard to get u out of my mind?
y can't u open ur eyes n look ard..
some 1 waiting patiently for u..
n u just walk past..

47 days to go b4 i really let u go..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:21 PM|

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Monday, November 07, 2005

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*counting down to the end of mth*

07/11/05
10.20pm

well i jus back frm work.. this wk.. i dun haf a morning.. onli a shift of 12 to 9.. wats more.. i am alone.. zzz.. i cant believe sales can be so bad at OG.. imagine 2 tourists in a entire floor? total silent? but there 1 thing i mus say.. OG staff welfare is gd.. they have a 20% off everything items.. den they even haf this SHOPPING BREAK!!! frm mon to tue.. after evening time.. staffs can go to the counter to obtain a shopping break pass and they can shop freely in the entire OG.. wah.. first time i heard smth like tis.. anyway.. i am onli interested in levis n addias at OG.. muhaha.. i wan to get a black addias polo.. beri nice.. SWEE!! my shopping list is getting longer each mth.. ARGHH!! anyway i caught Sky High at suntec.. nt bad.. i gif them 3/5.. 2 thumbs up..

it is a story of a superhero couple who haf a kid going to a high school.. this high school is real HIGH.. haha.. den this kid did not noe wat his super powers were until he gt himself into a fight.. the male star wasn't tt cute nor yandao.. but the female cast was pretty.. i mus say.. haha..

She's always on my mind
from the time I wake up
till I close my eyes
she's everywhere I go
she's all I know
and though she's so far away
it just keeps gettin stronger everyday
and even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
so tell me where do I start
cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go
may be my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and may be our hearts will find a way
only heaven knows
and all I can you do is hope and pray
cause heaven knows
my friends keep tellin'me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine so tell me
where do I start
cause it's breakin'my heart
don't wanna let her go
why I live in despair cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
and all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me
so heaven knows

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 10:33 PM|

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

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*Craving for jalan kaya pratas..*

02/11/05
10.40pm

muhaha.. i am back frm work!! finally!! a morning shift.. busy packing the stocks. knock off at 830pm. *tired* but u noe smth.. my kids actually eat the conflakes!! n they loved it!! i tink nex time i no nid buy those dried bacons for them liao since they tk the flakes.. haha.. these few days i was busy working.. i must admit time goes beri fast at OG.. starting to love it there.. the staffs there are so friendly.. hmm.. there a gal.. billabong gal *i dunno her name* really mus thx her.. i went for break.. n she help mi to serve 3 shoes.. a $19.90, $49.90 and a $59.90.. woOO.. DID OVER A 100 IN JUS A 45MINS!!! haha.. thx U..

oh ya.. LEVIS is having a SALE right now 60% discounts ONLY at TAMPINES MALL!!! muhaha.. n to those hu likes the addias watches.. CITY CHAIN is having a 20% SALE right now too.. haha.. so many offers how to resist.. WHILE STOCKS LAST!!! haha..

Lookin' at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger, always in my mind
The days would blend 'cuz we stayed up all night
You and I were anything, everything to me
I just want you to know
That I've be fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know?
All the doors are closing
I'm trying to move ahead
And deep inside
I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty
From the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know
That I've be fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know?
That since I lost you
I lost myself
No I can't fake it
There's no one else
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end I
wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know

guess wat the title of this lovely song?

maRcUs` (",)





| yawns @ 10:50 PM|

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Saturday, October 29, 2005

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*OG IS HELL*

29/10/05
11.25pm

haha.. as u can see frm the topic ar.. OG is not a place for rens to work.. haha.. it is god damn lonely if u r alone.. no 1 toks to u.. BUT it can oso be god damn busy if u r alone.. everything comes to u.. can u get mi? hi how much is this? wah.. headache.. plus i not beri familiar wif the closing.. so i gt jayce to guide mi on the phone.. end up every 1 waiting for mi.. lights off.. silent everywhere.. but overall today sales is gd.. cos OG is having a 20% sales storewide.. but for us is using the rebate vouchers..

today the self-claim cutest gal n su ping came down n haf dinner wif mi.. haha.. *gan dong* saw desmond on the way hm.. he went to chiong.. where am i? staying at hm on a FRIDAY NITE.. zzz.. haix.. looking forward to nex wk.. MY BROS!!! haha.. shall end here.. tv shall be my company tonite.. haha..

all i wan is a "i love u" frm u.. jus once.. will be enough..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:39 PM|

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

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*tiring day*

26/10/05
12.05pm

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of ur life.
If you let her go,
she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys,
if a girl cries becos of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
cos she's the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,
if a girl cries becos of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe becuz of your decision,
you ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of you,
when she cry becuz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think....
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And becuz of you?
She cries not becos she is weak,
She cries not becuz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries....
because crying silently is no longer possible..
The pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys...
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out to you.
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wad you have done.
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,becuz one day,
It may be too late for regrets.
It may be too late to say...
"I'm sorry".

Dont do this to a girl.
You may regret for the rest of ur life.
Maybe in your life,
she's the only one...
who loves u the most.

- taken frm someone blog, i would like to share wif u guys -

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 12:11 AM|

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

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*great day*

26/10/05
1.30am

haha.. my topic says it all.. first of all..

happy birthday to michell n my mei mei, peng!!!

today was my off day.. been slping my way through.. once awake.. the dinner ready.. den vcds vcds all the way until 12am.. haha.. wat a busy day.. tired.. going back to slp soon.. hee.. tml will be another great day ahead for mi.. working afternoon.. jayce n zi guo.. song.. hee.. feng liao..

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 1:15 AM|

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Monday, October 24, 2005

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*panda on my lap*

24/10/05
1.00am

compared the date of this entry n previous 1.. haha.. i am such a lazy bum.. haha.. but lazy is 1 of my character.. too bad.. first of all.. happy 19th birthday to jia wei..
hey.. my enlistment letter has arrived.. within months i will be BALD.. damn.. i hate it.. den qns starts coming into my mind.. will i makes fren there? will i feel lonely? haix.. it doesn't matter if the trainings will be tough anot.. cos i wish for a betta built body.. =x wanted to go in silently but she learn of it liao.. came over to my hse last nite and i pop the qns to her again.. failedddd... damn.. y can't i deserve a 2nd chance? until now doesn't she noe hu treat her the best? i am jux too tired.. i tink for days b4 i pop the qns to her this time.. cos i am beri sure of wat i wan.. i jus dowan to regret but.. i wish i some 1 could hit me hard in the head ar.. i know i am not like him.. sweet talking is not my cup of tea in fact i dun even noe how.. i sux at it.. f**k
why must u start to contact mi when i am already starting to gif u up? i am such a failure.. i jus wan to tk care of u.. be there for u wheneva u nid mi.. makes u luff when u r down.. loves u wif all my heart.. it is so hard? i tink i shld really carry on wif life.. love makes mi sick n tired..
abt my work.. there is a bit of reshufflement going on rite now.. plus the cctv going to be install on some stores.. makes mi feeling a bit sianx working.. but.. i heard i will be taking over charlie when his skooling starts.. which means.. i am GETTING OUT of j8.. haha.. no cctvs.. *phew.. cy starting to teach mi sell thru n some reports.. ji tao figures r driving mi nuts.. lols.. i jus hope OG wun be so busy.. tt all i am wishing.. haha..
here a song which i loves the lyrics..

Nickelback - Photograph
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head?
This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin' out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must've done it half a dozen timesI wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in
Oh, oh, oh...Oh, God I...
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbyeRemember the old arcade?
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They said somebody went and burned it down
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissedI was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when
Oh, oh, oh...Oh, God I...
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' forIt's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town, I miss the faces
You can't erase, you can't replace it
I miss it now, I can't believe it
So hard to stay, too hard to leave it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' forIt's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me...

nice rite? haix.. i beri long nv sings liao.. itchy ar.. I WAN TO GO KTV!!! haha..
ai gei le ni
wo bu hou hui
zhi xi wan ni gei wo yi ci ji hui

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 12:59 AM|

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

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*Scratching my head..*

13/10/05
12.30am

listening to sylvester - suo yi rite now.. it is a beri nice hor.. i like the lyrics, it is beri meaningful. the part "zhe shi ai qing hai shi ni tai mei li" haix.. maybe i shld ask myself tt.. beri confused.. half of mi wans her back badly.. the other half asks mi to put down.. all i can say is tt she is the first gal to make mi feel i will spent my rest of life wif.. i noe she is still waiting for him.. but y can't she open her eyes n look ard.. hu is betta? u noe how mux pain it is to c ur fren wif ur gal.. he promise mi tt he will tk care of her, love her.. but in e end? 2 wks.. tt all.. gone.. n now? she waiting for him.. 2 wks onli.. n she is like tis.. wat abt mi.. 10 mths.. shld i sucide? haix.. i wan to change topic.. these few days i am doing gd.. jus tt sudden mood swing la.. after tk a look at our pics.. the pics she cropped n named.. xiang hui dao guo qu.. working kills time lor.. gt myself nano and a new hp.. almost used up all my resources.. jia lat.. eating grass this few days.. any money to spare mi? lols.. *yawns* i am tired..


There was a old man sitting on a bench outside the mall. A young man walked who had spiked hair that was orange, yellow, green and red. The old man just looked at him. The young man said '' What's the matter old man? Haven't you ever done anything crazy in your life? '' And the old man said ''Well actully I have. I once got drunk and had sex with a parrot. I was just wandering if you were my son.''

Do not make any promise if u cant fufil..

maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 12:33 AM|

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

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*Playing With My 2 Kids*

05/10/05
12.40am

i am back.. i miss u blog.. i really do.. haha.. i gt i gt alot alot of of things things to to tell tell you you.. but not tonite.. i am dead tired.. i shall tell u tml.. here a joke to cheer those hu r unhappy..

Ah Beng went for a job interview for a sales job. When the manager saw Ah Beng's colourful attire, his mind is shouting, "Not this man!!" However, he still had to entertain Ah Beng.

Therefore,he told Ah Beng, "If u can form sentence using the words i gave you,then I will give you a chance! The words are'Green,Pink,Yellow,Blue,White,Purple,Black.'

Ah Beng thought for a while and said, "I heard the phone go Green,Green, and then i went to Pink up the phone and said, Yellow?Blues that?White did you say? Aiyah, wrong number. Do not Purplely disturb people and do not call Black, ok? You kena sai."

No further questions.He got the job.

maRcUs (",)


| yawns @ 12:57 AM|

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Friday, December 03, 2004

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*Payday TODAY!!! Heex.. Money Money Money..*

3/12/04
2.55am

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy...

When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl...
Girls break-up when they feel separation from her man...

Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics from other guys...

Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...

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Never Get Into A Love When U Meant To Break A Heart...
Never Look Into Eyes When You Meant To Lie...
Promise Are Meant To Be Kept...
Wishes Are Onli Meant To Be Fulfilled...
Scars Will Never Heal...
Hearts Are Not Meant To Be Played With...
Lies Are Onli Meant To Hurt..
And Sorry Is NOTHING But A Word...

Hmm.. Jux wan to say Happy Birthday to my dearest darling and a happy first month..
- 27/10/04 -

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 3:00 AM|

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Monday, November 08, 2004

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*Yawns*

8/11/04
1.20am

PAYDAY!!! LOLLLL.. but tis mth no shoppping.. -.-" confession : i am a big fat lazy pig.. yawns.. WUHA.. LALALALA

maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 1:19 AM|

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Friday, October 15, 2004

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*Back.. (",)*

15/10/04
2.46pm

I am back guys.. Miss mi? Haha.. I miss u blog.. Hmm.. It has been mths n mths since i blog liao.. Gt a bit not used to it.. Lolx.. Been real busy wif my exams.. But now tt it is over.. HOLIDAYS!!! Yea~ Haha.. Been playing the last few days.. In fact, i jux came back frm a chalet.. Resources running low liao.. So i decided to work to regain my resources.. Back to Kster working.. Since tis is the "first" posting.. Haha.. I decided to keep it short.. But i gt smth to share wif u guys.. (",)

An extract frm a fren blog..

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-yearold son waiting for him at the door.
SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"
DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.
SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.
SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "If you must know, I make $20 an hour."
"Oh", the little boy replied, with his head down. Looking up, he said,"Daddy, may I please borrow $10?"
The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behaviour."
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour orso, the man had calmed down,and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask for money very often.
The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door."Are you asleep, son?" He asked. "No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.
"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man."It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for." The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you. daddy!" He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money,then looked up at his father. "Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled. "Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied. "Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."

Touched? I hope u guys are feeling wat i am feeling now.. Take Care Peeps..

maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 3:00 PM|

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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

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*Sian Sian Sian Sian Ar... HELP!!!*

31/08/04
9.40pm

Did not went to skool again.. Aiyo tis is the 4th day liao.. Si liao le la.. Tml duno wat to tell the lecturers oso.. *Still tinking of excuses..* Ytd was the celebration of MeiZhu bdae.. We would suspose to meet at Sembawang station at 5.30pm but end up reach there at 6 plus.. Lolx.. We did not meant to be late.. Haha.. Sj n me pei wL went hm.. Cos he wan to take money n Sj wanted to change into jeans.. Den we took shuttle bus to duno where.. Which shopping centre? Lolx.. Den ate at the top floor the restuarant.. The foods was not bad.. N the most of all it is quite cheap.. After eating den we start to cut the birthday cake.. Ate quite a big slice.. Hehe.. I am a fat ass.. Lolx.. Den after eating.. We really duno where to head lor.. Den MeiZhu gif each of us a pieces of paper n we wrote where we wish to go.. I wrote "HOME" Lolx.. They found out is mi.. Haix.. Not fun.. In the end.. We used Sj 1.. Go Kbox.. Since monday is members' nite ma.. So might as well.. Haha.. Den we start to kuang sing as usual.. I felt i sings beri nice tt nite.. Cos she is on my thoughts.. Haha.. Den i jux imagine lor.. Stoopid mi.. After singing at 5.. We decided to chill out at 1 of the 24hrs coffee club or wat.. In the end we went Swensen.. Ordered 2 fries.. They put the fries on the plates.. So nice of them.. Gif us so mux.. Hehex.. Den actually wanted to eat de.. But the main courses all so X.. So we made a daring decision.. Go 7 eleven n buy cup noodles back to eat.. Haha.. Ji tao dun care abt our xin xiang.. Haha.. After eating we start to play games lor.. Den gt forfits 1.. Like we each member hold a packet of sugars.. salt.. pepper.. Den the losers will choose 1 lor.. Den they will haf to eat half the packets.. Haha.. So fun.. After tt we make the forfits even worse.. We played wif those things n put them into the water.. The first cup was alrite la.. Still can ta han.. But den the second cup was.. Ji tao er.. Cos gt the chilli oil.. Duno which bloody idiot put 1.. Drink finish all.. *Went hm n straight away lao sai for 1/2 hrs* Hope MeiZhu enjoys her 19th bdae wif us.. Cos i enjoyed it myself.. Cheers!!! =x

maRcUs` (",)






| yawns @ 9:58 PM|

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Monday, August 30, 2004

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*Spinning Headache...*

30/08/04
12.52pm

Headache as to y things mux go tis way? First of all.. Lets us wish 2 of my fren happy birthday.. - Happy Birthday To MeiZhu & KaiLinG - They r 2 persons i nv regret knowing.. Did not go skool for 3 days liao.. In fact i dun tink tml i going.. Dun haf the mood to study u sees.. So fan these few days.. Haix.. I saw her on friday.. She came down to sing.. Thoughts n unhappiness crosses my mind.. She is still the same old her.. Cheerful.. Happy.. I even saw some 1 close to her.. Maybe she has found someone ba.. I am not sad over tis.. I really feel happy for her.. I am oso glad to say.. My feelings for her is not as strong as last time le.. Feelings now for her is only friendship.. Finally told Lorenz i dowan to work liao.. He was at first not beri agreeable.. But after i told him abt my studies.. He told mi to work 4 him the most another 2 wks.. Or maybe 1 wk.. Until he gt someone to replace us.. Actually i do feel smth for kster.. Cos tis is 1 work i haf worked 4 quite long.. I tink i worked there gt 5 mths liao.. Gt a bit yi yi bu she.. Wad to do.. Every1 leaving.. My studies slacking.. Haix.. Blog there is smth i wish to tell u tt is in my mind for a beri long time.. I tink i am in love.. But i not sure myself.. Cos i duno if i am using her to 4get my ex u sees.. When she is sad.. I am.. Is tis love? Or tis is jux a crush? I told myself not to rush things.. So till now i nv confess my feelings to her.. I dowan later fren oso cant be.. I tink time had told mi an answer.. But now.. I tink 1 of my best pals is in love wif her too.. Wad am i going to do? Can some 1 tells mi? I haf to act normal in front of him.. It is beri.. Tt explains y i am drinking these few days.. I am really at lost.. Tis situation happens to mi once.. I choose love.. But it is not always so lucky to haf my fren back.. I tink tis time.. I will choose friendship.. I will gif up when my love for her is not tt deep.. Loving someone is not abt wanting her by ur side.. It is wanting her to be happy.. I hope he stands a betta chances den mi.. I wish him all the best..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 12:50 PM|

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Thursday, August 26, 2004

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*Shaggy But Still Can Smile..*

26/08/04
12.20pm

Hmm.. Haven really gt tis feeling 4 a beri long time le.. I was actually busy the past few days.. On monday i went to skool as usual.. zX sms mi in the noon asking mi out.. I sees he so ke lian.. Cos Sunday i did not went out wif him.. I was so lazy to get up frm my bed.. I was slping until evening.. Haha.. But i did said sry to u.. Actually we intend to call LeeTian, wL 1 de.. Den zX asks mi go call kL.. Haha.. Den he told mi smth.. Nex monday was MeiZhu de bdae.. So it crashes wif kL de birthday oso.. Den zX ask mi to ask her out den sun bian celebrate her bdae lor.. But too bad.. She was sick on monday.. Even went to see a doc.. Hmm.. Quite serious hor.. Actually i duno how many times she get sick le.. Lent mi ur 2 hands oso cant count finish.. Lolx.. Aniway.. Went down to orchard n meet him.. Went to makan first n discuss abt kL bdae the nex day.. Call Zhen up.. Den Yun ar.. Den Every 1 lor.. After makan.. We went Far East go shop to get kL de present.. But den is actually the main purpose is zX buying his shirt at POA.. Tt ass.. In e end.. We found a necklace at Bits & Pieces.. It was so nice.. Ji tao cute.. The pendant is a angel lai de.. Hehe.. Gt meaning de.. I told u liao.. *WinKs* After tt we went to sing lor.. Tian gt project.. wL say he cum nex day to celebrate kL bdae not monday.. Onli we 2 tian mi mi.. A bit sianx la.. But we kuang sing tt day.. Haha.. We even quarrel over singing even onli we 2 nia.. Cos we kept dowan each other to disturb.. We wan solo sing the whole song.. Haha.. It was fun.. Went hm ard 12 plus like tt.. Nex day.. Went to skool without anything.. Cos onli gt 2 hrs lessons nia.. Den can go out liao.. After skool.. Classmates pull mi go kbox sings.. Haix.. Ji tao.. A bit feng.. Cos ytd sing den afternoon sing den evening sing again.. Ji tao havoc.. Haha.. Went to parkway de kbox sing klunch.. I kuang sing the pu tong peng you.. It was so nice.. Ji tao love the song.. Den after kbox went to orchard meet JieLin n Shirlyn.. They both pull mi go take neo prints.. All beri ugly ar.. Lolx.. Den zX came n save mi.. Go wif him to Bugis to meet Yun, Angel n Zhen.. They oso bought a present 4 kL.. It was a hp chain.. Gt her name on it.. LinG.. Haha.. Den we went to BreadTalk n bought a cake lor.. Heads straight to ChaXuan le.. I feel ChaXuan is a nice place to celebrate bdaes.. Haha.. Cos zX 1 oso celebrate there de.. Den ask kL to cum over.. Actually she told mi she already ar gar noe wad happening le.. Cos she say i duno how to lie? Hmm.. Am i such a bad liar? Maybe i duno how to bluff gals.. -.- Den she came we light up the cake.. She was shock.. - Happy Advanced Birthday To KaiLinG - I hope so.. After all tt hard work.. Lolx.. Den we kuang sing n kuang takes pics.. Haha.. Pics can be found in my pics gallery.. Hehe.. Ji tao beri fun.. Den we oso kuang say cold jokes.. Beri lame.. Sing until 11 plus like tt.. Den we go off lor.. Reach hm ard 1 plus.. Cos sent Yun hm.. She is really 1 of my best pal.. I oso duno y.. Loves chatting wif her.. Haha.. Reach hm.. Chat wif kL online asking her how she felt ar.. Blah blah lor.. Today went to skool like a walking zombie.. Haha.. Not enough slp.. Den get back 2 test papers.. Haix.. Fail both.. I haf decided to work hard frm nex wk onwards.. Haha.. I onli can sad 4 awhile nia.. After awhile i am back to my old self le.. Haha.. After skool.. Meet zX they all 4 dinner.. But den end up watching a movie.. 13 going 30.. Quite a nice show.. Beri funny.. nv regret watching.. Haha.. I rated it.. 7/10.. Hehe.. Ok la.. i tink i will end here.. Back to msn chatting le..

maRcUs` (",)





| yawns @ 12:55 AM|

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Sunday, August 22, 2004

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*Moodswing.. Wondering Why???*

22/08/04
10.33pm

Alot of things crosses my mind.. I am jux feeling like a clueless kid in the middle of nowhere under a thunderstorm.. Onli the slashes of rain drops n the heartbeats could be heard.. Standing there wondering wat the fuck am i doing here? There had been quite alot tings happening during the past few days.. Friday as usual i was working.. Kster had change the wallpaper.. Gt S.H.E, 5566 n Kone de.. The Andy Lau changes to Ren Xian Qi le.. It was quite a boring n moody day for every1.. Bcos tt fat ass is watching over us.. Every1 was in a foul mood.. For mi.. I oso duno how cum like tt.. It all started when i saw my smses at orchard wif zX, Tian n MeiZhu (another new fren) Saturday was ji tao even a fark up day i had.. I was clearing up a room.. N i saw a pack of cigarettes.. There is still a few sticks like tt.. (5 - 6 sticks) I dun smoke wat so i gif to Simon lor.. Bcos he ji tao so ke lian.. Dinner he had to eat maggi mee let alone to buy a pack of cigarettes.. But nv did i noe tt the customer actually came back up to take the cigarettes.. Simon had no choice but to hand it over lor.. Lorenz was there looking at the whole process.. As usual.. He told off Ah Bi first.. I am so sry Ah Bi.. Everytime is u kena first bcos of us.. Really feel bad.. After tt Ah Bi told mi tt Lorenz tot is Simon took the cigarettes n regard him as dishonest.. Without hestiating.. I went to confess to Lorenz.. I told him tt the pack of cigarettes is i found 1.. Den i gif it to Simon.. Is not his fault ma.. I dowan Lorenz to wu hui.. Cos he already put Simon n Kanzy on blacklist liao.. Lorenz told mi off lor.. I was a little bu shuang la.. But wat to do.. He is boss.. I jux haf to listen n ren lor.. Den tt Simon was so stoopid to cum up to us.. N bcos of 1 sentence Simon said ar.. Lorenz was on fire.. "It is jux a pack of cigarettes nia.." He is such a fool sia.. Y mux he cum? Y mux he said out tt sentence? I noe he doesn't really noe how to express himself.. It was none of his business oso.. It was mi hu gif de ma.. He jux put in his pocket nia.. I was ji tao sianx tt day.. I duno y i am still working.. Duno.. Maybe tis will be the last mth i be working.. Haix.. Wad a bad day for mi.. Today i was slping wif thoughts n thoughts on my head.. I couldn't slp well.. Tt y i could not meet u zX.. So sry.. Can some 1 tell mi wat the difference between crush n love? I am really at lost.. Y i everytime sms her she jux ignored mi? Some 1 told mi.. 1 way to 4get a past relationship is to try liking some1.. Does tt really work? Can memories be erased jux like tt? It is so easy? If it is.. Den how cum it is called memories? I had tot of liking some 1.. But i tink i am jux using her to 4get her.. It is not beri fair to her.. Told alot of ppl dun be sad.. Mux be happy.. Cheer up.. Y sad? If u can choose to be happy or sad? But can i really do it myself? I dun tink so.. I am jux trying to be happy.. It is so difficult? Every story has an ending.. But in life.. An ending means a new beginning.. So am i belong to story? Or life? Or i dun even exists?

“True love doesn’t have a happy ending. That’s because true love doesn’t have an ending."

"A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance."

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 11:15 PM|

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Thursday, August 19, 2004

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*Singing Wo De Cuo By B.A.D*

19/08/04
9.33pm

Jux wake up.. Eaten my dinner n i am here updating my blog.. Oh ya.. Today soup so super nice tt i drank 2 bowls.. (Carrot Soup) Ytd was zX birthday!!! - Happy Belated Birthday Zhi Xiong - As usual we went to celebrate his birthday wif the same old ppl.. LeeTian, wL, ShunJie.. Tis time.. Gt 1 more new person.. She is Lynn.. A fren of theirs.. Beri funny n joker oso.. Small tings can made her luff until stomachache.. zX has tis craving to go ChinaBlack.. Ji tao means i cant go.. Haix.. But LeeTian gt an idea lor.. She said i look like 1 of their fren Alex Chang.. (I end up having his profile up in my head) Lent the IC frm him.. Ji tao not like mi.. Wa lao.. Tis time die le la.. Gotta to spoilt every 1 mood liao.. Haix.. On the journey there.. I was so nervous.. Reading his stuffs over n over again.. Den earlier on.. We gt ask kL along.. Cos LeeTian was the onli gal den.. B4 she ask Lynn.. But kL jux dowan to cum.. Well back to ChinaBlack.. wL was first in Q.. I was second.. We took out our ICs.. Den showed it to him.. Ji tao i was like normal.. But deep down.. I was praying like hard.. Lolx.. But i nv did not expect.. The outcome was.. "Pls proceed to ur right.." wOoOO.. Haha.. Did our payment n up we go.. HAVOC!!! Haha.. Wow.. ChinaBlack is indeed BLACK!!! Lolx.. First time there.. *Beri Sua Ku..* Aniway.. There is 1 more gal joining us.. I heard.. Annabelle.. She is 1 of our K-ster ex staff.. Saw her once nia.. Tt time she come n sings.. She oso beri havoc oso.. She likes to talk ba.. I tink.. Cos she really talks alot.. Ji tao like story teller.. Gt actions n sound effects 1.. Ji tao like watching movie n those dramas.. So funny.. Den at there i oso had a little shock.. kL suddenly pop out lor.. 7th month leh.. Wa lao.. i tot i seeings tings.. Lolx.. Bluff mi.. I will remb de.. Haha.. We actually danced!!! Haha.. Beri fun.. I tink i like it.. Hehex.. After tt we went to haf breakfast/supper at serangoon.. Choy Moy joining us.. She ji tao ytd nite was so quiet.. Maybe bcos we were all listening to Annabelle's story.. Haha.. Joking n luffing away.. Haha.. Made 2 new fren.. 2 different persons.. Totally different.. Went back hm ard 7 plus.. Took a bath n doze off straight away.. Woke up at 12.45.. N went to skool le.. Return Alex the IC den went 4 tutorial liao.. At there hor.. We were discussing love phrases sia.. I oso duno how we started sia.. After skool went straight hm n straight to my bed.. Lolx.. Until now lor.. Tml mux wake up early.. Cos 8 start skool.. So i tink will slp early.. Geez.. Nite guys..

maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 9:56 PM|

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

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*Yawn*

17/08/04
4.05pm

It's been a few days since i blogged le.. Getting lazier n lazier.. Haha.. Wish i had 48hrs a day sometimes.. Friday, i went to work as usual.. After work, Zell n yL gt someting to tok wif mi.. So i meet them at the bball court down the hse 1.. Actually i noe wat they wan to tok abt.. Is abt tt ting in irc 1.. Actually i oso dun tink i am at fault oso.. He shouldn't ask mi those stuffs when i am at my lowest point.. Haix.. I oso dowan to lose a friend over such a small matter lor.. It is really stoopid lor.. Nvm.. Wat over is over.. Saturday was another boring day at work lor.. But LeeTian is joining us at K-ster not the fireworks lor.. So at least not so bad.. After work.. They came to punggol n haf supper/breakfast wif Zell yL n jW.. Haha.. So crowded sharing 1 table nia.. Plus wL n ShunJie.. Sunday... went to watch fireworks.. WoOooO.. It was so nice.. Ji tao power.. Ji tao best.. Cos it was the first time i saw the fireworks right at my face.. -.-" Haha.. Den went to PS watch Twins Effect 2.. Ji tao nice.. Ji tao best too.. Haha.. Beri lame.. The 1st 1 n 2nd 1 totally no link de lor.. 1st 1 abt vampires.. The 2nd 1 abt the world ruled by females.. Den males as slaves.. Gillian was so cute!! Haha.. Charlene was chio too.. Hehex.. Ji tao love it.. Too bad edison dies so early in part 2.. After show.. Took a cab hm cos it already past 12 le.. Den Monday was ji tao a super busy day.. Went to skool at 9am.. Went there so early to rush my NMM project.. Managed to finish in 3.5 hrs time.. Haha.. I was copying here n there n kept changing my name n call it mine.. Hehex.. Den tt Kanzy sms mi ask wan to go ktv ma.. Den he said he ask LeeTian n zX.. I sees nan de Kanzy off.. Den dowan to spoilt his mood so i agreed lor.. But den LeeTian told mi she wed wun be joinning us so she wan to celebrate zX bdae along lor.. Haix.. Not coming jux over someting stoopid she did.. -.-"

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 4:20 PM|

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

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*Tired.. Wear out.. Exhausted... Eyes Closing.. Ji Tao zZzz*

12/08/04
7.10pm

Jux gt come after havoc.. Did not really update my blog these days.. I getting more n more lazy i guess.. Da lan zhu.. Ok.. Lets get started.. Wan to collapse ani time.. On Monday.. I was working lor.. So actually nth really happen mux.. Oh ya.. Haf.. Kanzy n Simon lor.. I feel hor.. I no matter how sad or moody.. Once gt them ar.. Everything will be different.. They r jux so funny.. Beri lame oso.. Can luff until u stomachache de.. Tt time i took the same transport as them.. We were luffing all the way i reach hm first.. Ji tao funny sia.. Den tuesday i was oso working.. Tt day was Jasmine birthday.. - Happy Birthday Jasmine !!! - Haha.. We did celebrate wif her on tt day.. We even gif her a susprise.. Tt day i ask zX, LeeTian n wL come kster sing cos tt fat ass is not there.. Den told them is Jasmine bdae.. Every1 fork out some money n zX n wL went to buy the cake.. They came back frm the back door.. (Shh!!! Haha..) Den wif the customers' consent, Simon played the bdae song at Hall.. Haha.. I bet she was susprised.. Hehex.. Oh ya.. The cake was so nice.. So beautiful.. Ji tao dun feel like eating.. (In e end i took a large piece..) Den every1 was back to work.. Den i ji tao slack until i can reply sms lor.. Wendy started to sms mi these few days.. Asking mi how am i.. She even ask mi if i am single now.. I told her i now mei ren yao.. She reply mi jokingly she yao.. I noe she is joking de la.. Or seriously 1? Beats mi.. How i noe gals' heart? Ani way.. I am happy wif my present life.. I dowan to be tied down again.. Feeling so tired to start another relationship.. Guess i will be single tis time 4 a beri beri long time.. Haha.. Now oso not bad.. Can go havoc wif zX, LeeTian, wL, ShunJie n Jim (The last 2 r my new frenz.. Haha.. Oso beri funny 1 they 2) Jux now.. wL suddenly feels like going to watch a movie.. Since i oso beri sianx at hm.. Den i ok lor.. Den ask LeeTian n ShunJie to cum along.. We watch CatWoman.. It was quite a nice show lor.. If u like spiderman 2 hor.. I tink u will like tis 1 too.. Exciting!!! I tink it is worth it lor.. (We watch $7.50) After tt zX came to meet us.. Actually we were supposed to head hm straight after movie de.. Den we bai chi zX.. Haha.. Shld look at his face.. So ke lian.. Den zX suggest or duno hu la.. 4get le.. Go Toa Payoh Kbox sing.. Den we all bai chi zX ma.. Den all like faking on him lor.. But den suddenly LeeTian says.. "Wan to go anot? really.. Ani way i nex wk not free liao.." After tt we were on our way to Toa Payoh liao.. Wth.. Haha.. Really too havoc liao they all.. Still not e end hor.. Reach Toa Payoh.. Onli to found out tt there onli open until 12pm not 3am.. Ji tao sianx half.. Den new plans came up lor.. KUnion.. zZzz.. It was already 12am liao lor.. Ji tao tink cab is the onli transport.. But to our susprise.. Still gt bus leh.. 105.. Haha.. Save alot.. Den sing sing blah blah.. Until every 1 were so shag.. zX n wL took the first train hm.. Den mi, LeeTian n wL took a cab.. Tt fat pig.. So lazy.. Wan to take cab.. Pull ShunJie along lor.. In e end i oso tio.. Ji tao sian.. I forcely agree lor.. Since ShunJie stays my there onli.. Ok la.. Each person $3.50 like tt.. So actually not so bad la.. Haha.. Ok la.. I tink i will end here le la.. So long entry later ppl read until dowan to read liao.. Lolx.. Ji tao going to kuang slp.. Later nite still gt work.. But tink tonite will be a sianx sianx 1.. Cos Kanzy n Simon off sia.. Haix.. Ok la.. Enough le.. Zai Jian!!!

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 7:35 AM|

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Monday, August 09, 2004

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*At Lost...*

09/08/04
2.15pm

First of all.. I tink i gt to wish some 1 happy birthday.. Singapore.. Haha.. - Happy Birthday Singapore!!! - Did not update my blog last 2 days.. I am jux too busy.. Working these few days.. Gt woke up by zX's call at ard 12 plus like tt.. Wanted to update my blog b4 going to meet them.. But den.. kL was kinda of moody.. So chat wif her trying to cheer her up.. End up gt to take a cab down to Outram to meet them.. Actually my love life was not going on well oso.. Tt noon she msg mi a sms tt left mi stunted.. I jux duno how to reply.. Meet zX n LeeTian liao.. Went to Cha Xuan n sing cos zX sat nite suddenly gt the craving to sing.. Cos gt alot of new songs ma.. LeeTian left ard 4 plus to work at the fireworks festival.. Den not long after Kanzy came n join us liao.. At tt time she gt sms mi.. Telling mi how mux she needed mi.. I am really confused.. Really duno wad to do.. I am really really tired to tok abt relationship now.. Y can't she jux understand? Y takes tings 4 granted.. Onli after u loses it den u regret it now.. Haix.. I tot abt it over n over again.. Once a vase is broken.. It is.. No matter how hard u try to glue it back.. There will always be marks there.. Sometimes i really feel like telling her i dun love her ani more.. Den maybe she will gif up? I really dowan to hurt her ani more.. I am jux too tired.. too tired.. I did not really reply her sms.. Cos zX's hp no batt le.. Den i lent him mine lor.. I guess 4getting her is the way out? I really hope she can understand.. Really do.. I really hope we can remains as fren not as foes.. Haix.. I am having so many probs sia.. Really feel like crying.. Going to work on mon, tue, thur, fri n sat.. Cos my family gt finance prob.. Gt to work during my holiday.. So xin ku sia.. I hope tis crisis will be over fast.. *Sigh*

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 2:30 PM|

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Saturday, August 07, 2004

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*Confused*

07/08/04
7.10am

Ytd was suppose to be a happy day for mi.. Tis is bcos i having my last paper le.. Den the whole of nex wk i will be having holiday.. Yeah~ After my Java paper, i went to eat wif my fren at design skool.. The western food was super.. Pork Chop was so nice.. It was betta den business skool sia.. Haha.. Ji tao pi ping.. After tt as usual, we would go to pavilion n haf a game of billard.. It was so sianx sia when tt D started to follow us.. He was such a pest.. Everyone dislike him alot.. Cos he like to tok big.. Played 2 rds of billard.. (Draw game - mi n WeiLiang) Den i went to meet zX at Toa Payoh MRT station.. He took mi to a beri cheap place to dye my hair.. The cost was $25.. more $7 cos zX dye onli $18.. But i feel it is worth it lor.. Services was quite gd.. $25 is indeed a bargain.. Some ppl can even cut their hair at $28 lor.. The outcome? Hmm.. zX says beri nice.. Den meet LeeTian n wL.. They both say the colour is beri nice.. I tink i become more shuai? Haha.. Den we ate Mac for dinner.. Ta Bao some Mac foods 4 kL.. She singing room wif her cousin.. Kster was once again alive bcos Kanzy n Simon came back le.. I was so happy to see them back sia.. Kanzy n Simon still the same old them.. Still like to joke n crap.. Lolx.. Den today the Lorenz was so bu shuang.. Duno wif wat oso.. Maybe is the business not gd den blame on us lor.. He scold every 1 lor.. Includes mi.. wL was the most ke lian 1.. Tt y i tink today will be the last day i will be working wif him le.. I will miss him de..

Everything was going on so fun until.. I saw some 1.. Some 1 hu show mi wat is true love.. Some 1 whu i had given my heart to.. Some 1 i tot i had 4gotten until... She reappears today at Kster.. She was singing wif her fren at rm 7.. My mood started to change.. My thoughts in my mind are all abt her.. Qns jux pop out of my mind.. Is she coming to see mi? Or is she coming to let mi see tt she is living on fine? Or am i tinking too mux? I had alot of words, sentences i wanted to say to her.. But i jux do not haf the courage to do so.. Until now.. I still duno if it was my fault? Or hers? Or maybe there is no right or wrong in love? I wanted to tell her.. The wallet she given mi.. Is still by my side.. The keychain she given me.. Is always by my side.. These r the memories she left 4 mi.. The once true love she had given mi.. Will always be in my mind 4eva.. When i knock off.. I saw her downstairs.. Not long.. Transport came n i jux walked past her toward the bus.. But den.. I still call her when i am on bus.. She sound tt she had 4gotten mi already.. She was waiting 4 a fren.. (It was not mi) So i guess i will try to 4get her again.. wL was such a gd listener.. Ji tao his love life was jux like mine.. So similar.. He told mi alot of stuffs which i tink had help mi alot.. I tink it will takes mi some time to get rid of her in my mind.. I mux try.. I mux..

maRcUs` (",)








| yawns @ 7:40 AM|

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Thursday, August 05, 2004

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*Sick - Fever, Headache, Sore Throat, Stomachache... Suffering..*

05/08/04
7.25pm

At last ar.. I am really sick liao.. Even since last year b4 the O lvl until now.. Tis morning i woke up wif a spinning headache sia.. So pain.. Ji tao until cant walk properly.. Den i dun tink i can make it to my FDCNK exam lor.. Den rest 4 a while b4 going to polyclinic to see a doc.. There were a lot of ppl sia.. So crowded.. I 10 plus went to polyclinic liao.. Reach hm abt 12 plus sia.. So long.. Ji tao can slp there while waiting.. Haha.. (Maybe bcos i too long nv go polyclinic liao) Wa lao.. Suffering sia.. Help!!! Head beri pain.. Throat oso beri pain.. Haix.. i wish tml can be alright sia.. Cos meeting zX going out 1.. N the Java exam.. Dowan to miss.. Now is 7.30pm plus le.. I haven even eaten le.. Frm morning until now.. I dun tink i feel like writing ani more le la.. So cold.. (Wearing sweater now..) Stop here le la b4 i gt a breakdown..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 7:35 PM|

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Wednesday, August 04, 2004

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*Tired*

04/08/04
11.40pm

WoOoOO.. Jux gt hm.. Went to bath n started writing my blog.. Today i am so happy.. Bcos today is the day i feng kuang de go shopping.. Go wif wL, SoonJie, Jim n zX.. I bought alot of stuffs sia.. Haha.. A pair of Levi jean (At Heeren) A nice white t-shirt (At Heeren oso) Jay's new album (At Far East.. Bought at $17.90 onli.. Hehe) N S.H.E de comic bk (At kino) Really beri long nv like tis happy liao.. Den after tt we meet LeeTian watch moive (At Cine) I-Robot.. Den go eat first b4 watching.. SoonJie told us a beri lame joke.. He say "Jux now i order foods, the counter ask mi.. Chilli, ketchup or tomato?" Lolx.. Den after tt saw Wendy.. She cut hair le.. Nv sees her clearly.. She says she shy.. Lolx.. The show was so nice.. Ji tao exciting n funny oso.. Nv regret watching.. But today bcos of time ar.. I nv go dye.. Haix.. So sad.. zX say friday den bring mi go.. Sianx.. Friday lor.. Now i am so shag.. I tink i will end here le la.. Mux start on my revision of FDCNK le.. Tml is exam.. Haha.. Wish mi luck..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 11:56 PM|

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

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*Sore Throat... Cant Luff Out Loud... zZzz*

03/08/04
11.50pm

Actually now is 2 plus le.. Suppose to be 04/08/04.. Haha.. But i smart rite.. Hui Dao Guo Qu.. Haha.. Today ar.. Gt the NMM exam.. Alrite la.. Tink i can pass but not wif flying colours.. Den zX sms mi.. Say today go take pay.. Den ok lor.. Ask him wan to meet earlier ma.. Den go town walk walk first.. Den i ask kL, LeeTian, QiuYun and Wayne (Beri long nv see him le) along to take pay oso.. Meet zX at orchard mrt station.. Den we walk towards Far East and saw kL n her fren.. Wa lao.. So qiao.. She going Cine makan (Den oso nv ask us wan to cum along ma.. Lolx) Den i n zX tian mi mi go eat BK.. Today hor.. We like spent most of our money on foods.. Order a value meal den some side dishes.. Den after tt we meet LeeTian, we go Mos n eat again.. Buy the strawberries n eat.. So nice.. Den jux now gt a sudden craving 4 ice-cream.. Den i dun care.. Sore throat oso eat.. Wahaha.. Like tis goes on ar.. I tink i will be like last time de wo.. Cant.. Mux jian fei le.. Lolx.. Den not long.. QiuYun meet us oso.. Den we went to HMV.. Cos Jay album out le.. But onli 4 those hu gt pre-order den can take.. *Sad* Cant sees how the album looks like.. Maybe tml i will go hunt n sees where gt.. Haha.. After tt QiuYun's Sis oso came n join us.. Den kL finally pop out.. Took 190 to Chinatown to take pay.. Hmm.. I was so susprised sia.. He nv cut my pay.. I so happy.. Gt xtra cash le.. Tml going out shopping.. HAVOC!!! Cos tml no exam den no nid go to skool lor.. Haha.. Tml oso the day my hair is not black ani more.. zX bringing mi a place hor.. Dye $18 bucks onli.. Cheap hor? But zX dye until so nice.. Cant believe oso mux believe le.. Lolx.. So looking forward to tml.. (Actually it is tml.. Lolx)

maRcUs` (",)


| yawns @ 11:58 PM|

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Monday, August 02, 2004

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*Sick And I Am Still Studying*

02/08/04
7.20pm

Hmm.. Mood getting betta le.. Ytd still went out wif LeeTian, ZhiXiong, WeiLiang and Jim (A fren of theirs) Ytd was the first time i saw him.. He was so bloody lame too.. Bth him.. We went to catch a movie ytd.. Brotherhood.. Ji tao thumbs up!!! Haha.. So nice.. Touching.. Even though there is some er xin de parts.. It is worth it.. ($8.50) Haha.. I noe tis show beri long liao le.. Cos i jux haf no time 4 movie lor.. Every wk gt work.. zZzz.. At last ytd gt to watch a movie.. It was oso beri long ever since i go town.. We watched until 12 plus.. Den talk a while of craps b4 taking cab hm.. Reach hm at 1 plus, den went straight to my studies (I gt exams today lor.. But i nv regret cos Brotherhood was so NICE!!! Lolx) Today gt 2 paper.. IISO n Cmaths.. I dun tink i can make it 4 both subjects.. Haix.. Probably will fail until chiam chiam.. Tml NMM exam.. Guess i will study hard for it? Most probably will.. Haha.. Oh ya.. Today i was sick sia.. Haha.. Cos i beri long nv sick liao lo.. Ever since last yr.. Long hor? Haha.. Not beri serious la.. But still can luff n craps.. Hehe~ I tink i will end here le.. Later no time to study.. Den again fail until chiam chiam i dowan.. Haha.. *Off to study le* TatA~

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 7:40 PM|

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Saturday, July 31, 2004

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*Tears In My Eyes*

31/07/04
5.25pm

Jux came back frm work.. Have a bath and do not really feel like slping.. Turn on my com and i decide to update my blog lor.. Tis early morning.. (30/07/04) Encountered someting i found it beri amusing.. It was my fren wL.. We were at lecture hall listening to IISO lecture.. Suddenly my frenz found a silver coloured packaging like a sweet in wL's front pocket of the bag which was not properly zipped. My frenz tot it was a sweet.. He den ask wL to gif him 1.. But wL jux ignored him.. He jux insisted tt he did not bring any sweets to skool.. My frenz bth his selfishness liao.. My frenz den signal to another frenz hu was sitting beside wL.. 1 hold on to wL and the other took his bag n opened.. To their amaze.. The silver packaging was actually CONDOMS.. Wat was wL bringing condoms to skool for? We started to throw qns at him.. He jux doesn't wan to ans.. Den my frenz threaten him.. If he does not ans hor.. My fren will throw the condom to the gals hu r sitting jux below us nia.. wL was a bit scared n said.. "My fren say use condom blow balloon more fun!!!" Den we all started to luff n luff so loud tt the teacher caught our attention.. Den i did not noe my frenz was so cb until.. He really went to throw the condom down to the gals.. And he told the gals.. "Erm.. My frenz dropped his stuff.. Could u mind picking up for him?" One of the gals pick up the condom n was stunt.. She held the condom and throw it at wL.. wL was so pai seh until he went to the toliet n hide rite after the lecture.. Lolx.. I guess wL has to hide his face everytime he walks ard IT blk ba..

When i was having a IISO lab.. I read wat kL wrote in her blog.. I did not know she gt such a sad story.. It jux remind mi of some 1 too.. Some 1 i used to cry during nitez.. Some 1 i could not get over wif.. Some 1 hu had left mi years ago.. Some 1 hu i tot i had jux 4gotten until now.. My grandfather.. (Ye Ye) My grandfather was not a beri nice person i first knew or shld i say heard? Tis is bcos he was paralysed.. He could not move so usually when we visit him n grandmother.. He will be always sitting on the sofa watching tv or jux lying on the bed slping.. The onli time we talk to him was during the time we reach we call him and during the time we leave we say gd bye.. I gt a beri bad impression of him.. In fact i dislike him beri mux.. Tis is bcos my dad used to told mi.. "When we were having dinner.. No 1 was suppose to luff or joke.. Every1 was jux quietly having their dinner.. No wasting of foods - Not even a single grain of rice.. Everything mux be finish!!! Sometimes he is so furious until he can turn the table upside down and the whole family can have no dinner for tt nite.." But everyting started to change when he started to move in wif us.. At first it was a no no.. Cos i had to actually gif up my room to him n my grandmother.. N given my grandfather attitude.. I dun tink i ta han.. My mum told mi it was jux for a short period of time.. Haix.. Since it is the way is it.. So be it.. I remb 1 day.. I came back frm skool.. Tired n shag.. I went to do my hw.. Suddenly i heard some 1 groaning in pain.. It was coming frm my room!!! 1 thought of it n i knew it was him.. He wanted water.. So i went to refill his water bottle and he actually thx mi.. Den i had a little chat wif him.. He told him how regretted he was.. How he treat his kids last time.. He even say maybe he paralsyed is his bao ying.. He say he say until tears come out.. Actually i found him beri ke lian.. Cos he has been suffering alot too.. Beri lonely oso.. No 1 to tok to.. So everyday after skool i will spend some of my time talking to him.. I even help my grandmother to change his diapers.. Feed him medicine and even cleaning him!!! There den i noe it was so hard n difficult to take care of him.. I remb him saying.. "I wish i could leave tis world faster.. Den ur grandmother will not be so xin ku.. Ur dad n uncles will not spend so mux money on medicines.." I listen to tis sentence and i cry.. I told him.. "U took care of them once.. Now let them took care of u back.." I onli get to noe the real him a couples of wks n he went back to my aunt's hse.. After a few wks, he passes away.. Only then i noe actually he is trying to spend his last moments wif each of us.. I could not even see him 4 the last moments.. My grandma told mi tt b4 he died.. He kept calling "Guo Dong!! Guo Dong Ar!!" I jux hated myself.. Y can't i noe the true him earlier? Y mux until the last moments den i noe everything.. Isn't it too late? Sometimes i wish i could go back to time and turn everything ard..

maRcUs` (",)





| yawns @ 6:28 AM|

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Friday, July 30, 2004

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*Feel Like Construction Works Is Going On In My Head...*

29/07/04
10.00pm

Haix.. Today ji tao feel sick sia.. Head beri pain ar!!! Ji tao head keep spinning sia.. Ji tao sleep throughout all the lectures.. (I onli go for 1 today..) Today is not my lucky day sia.. Got back my FDCNK case study paper le.. I gt 9/20.. I fail sia.. *Sad* I tot i will pass de leh.. Remb.. I gt study.. But all the ans jux go haywire.. Haix.. Tink it is time for mi to work hard liao.. Dowan to be left behind.. Actually today oso gt nth mux happenings lor.. Jux a normal day wif a normal life.. Tink of it.. Time really passes real FAST sia.. Few more days and it will be end of a mth liao le.. Den it oso means PAYDAY coming le!!! Lolx.. I guess i will wan to use the money to change my hp.. Use GD88 until beri sianx le.. I oso duno wan to change to which model gd.. Any advice? Haha.. *More and more excited* Lolx.. *Listening to Chen Xiao Chun de Nu Gai Rang Nan Ren Tai Lei..* I tink the lyics is so right for mi sia..

爱得好累
真 的好苦
女人不该让男人太累
虽然你是我的一切
也别让我感觉爱你很可悲
爱得好累
真的好苦
从来听不见你的一句赞美
就算我做 的都白费
之少就让我保留一点
爱得好累
真的好苦
我不怕辛苦
可是怎样你才满足。。。

maRcUs` (",)

 







| yawns @ 1:20 PM|

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Thursday, July 29, 2004

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*Seeing Stars Above My Head*

28/07/04
10.55pm

Muhahaha.. Today time passes real fast sia.. Skool suppose to end at 5 de today.. But den teacher postpone the Cmaths to tml morning 10 o'clock sia.. So today 12 i already beri free le.. Went to pavilion again.. Play billard.. Tis time lose sia.. Gt to pay.. (Wonder y i lose too.. Mux be too mux thoughts on my mind.. Neber concentrate!!! *Excuses*) Den went to TM walk walk.. Darren wanted to buy a polo tee den ask mi buy along.. I agree lor.. Bought 1 white colour 1.. Den saw at the lobby there gt FILA sales.. Den i caught my eye on a sweater.. Since K-ster so cold plus all the cold jokes.. I tink i nid it sia.. So i bought lor.. Quite nice la the design not 4geting the colours too.. Quite cheap too.. Bought it at $39.90.. I tink is worth it.. Haha.. I like the sweater so mux tt i went hm and took some pics wif it.. (Zhi lian hor?) Haha.. Show some of it to GuoJie.. Haha.. He abit bth mi liao.. Oh ya.. I almost 4get le.. I wan to share smth wif u guys tonite.. I haf a fren hor.. He told mi smth.. I duno i wan to luff or feel sad 4 him.. He told mi "I likes tis gal alot.. Damn alot.. One fine day.. I stead wif the gal sia.. I was so god damn happy.. But we onli last for 1 day onli.. Y? Bcos he pray to the God ma N say.. Pls.. Jux 1 day will do!!! Arghh.. If onli i told him 4eva.." Tis is not a joke lor.. It is real life de.. Tt y i duno wan to luff or feel sad sia.. But i understand 1 ting frm him.. Becareful of wat u wish? Nah.. Is happiness is always within ur hands.. See u wan to get hold of it onli ma..

maRcUs` (",)



| yawns @ 2:30 PM|

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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

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Ji Tao Duno Wat I Am Feeling Now...

27/07/04
6.00pm

Hmm.. Ytd nite.. zX gt sms mi leh.. He told mi he is still sad sia.. He told mi tt he nid a joke to cheer him up.. So i send him the joke KaiLinG sent to mi de.. Haix.. I tink he really loves her alot.. Den after tt KaiLinG oso moody.. Den i oso told her 1 of my lame jokes.. Den she luff.. I jux wondered.. Maybe God created mi to make ppl happy? How cum God neber creates another guy to make mi happy as well.. But seeing them happy.. I am oso contented.. Bcos one shld live in happiness but not saddness.. Aniway.. I told zX something which is frm my heart.. "Loving Someone Does Not Really Means You Mux Haf Her... But Is Wanting Her To Be Happy..." Haix.. Enough of ytd nite stuffs le la.. I woke up tis morning wif a headache sia.. (Maybe i woke up on the wrong side of the bed? *My bed onli gt 1 side...*) Finish skool at 11.. (Early hor? So song..) Den we go makan.. After makan hor.. We start to share jokes.. We were all luffing out loud sia.. The whole canteen was filled wif our laughters.. Although some jokes i heard b4.. But in different version la.. But some i do find it beri lame sia.. After our lunch hor.. Went to pavilion.. Play billard wif wEiLiAnG.. Den pool wif aLvIn and KeNjI.. KeNjI was quite pro wif pool sia.. Placings beri gd.. After playing.. KeNjI went back to skool 4 soccer.. Den aLvIn n wEiLiAnG n mi went to TM walk walk.. We see clothes lor.. Den tt aLvIn started to lame.. Lame until i bth.. Dowan to play liao.. He always like to di siao gals sia.. Wan to slap him sometimes.. Oh ya.. When we were at TM today hor.. I saw JaCkSoN wif her stead at pastamania eating.. He was BOTAK!!! Haha.. Fei Hua.. He doing NS now ma.. Lolx.. Tok to him a few sentences we went off to our homes le lor.. Reach hm den i went ard digging for foods.. Den i realise.. If i were to stuck at hm ar.. I sure die within days!!! Lolx.. Ji Tao no foods lor.. When Mum comes.. Mux tell her tis le.. Haha.. Guess i will end here.. Ok guys.. When u r down.. Trying tinking of the jokes u haf heard.. U will feel alot betta.. =x Luff n smile more often!!!

maRcUs` (",)

 



| yawns @ 9:30 AM|

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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

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*Rubbing My Eyes - Yawning - *
 
26/07/04
7.45pm

Today nth happen mux.. Woke up at 1 plus like tt.. First time i slp until so song sia.. But i am still tired now.. (Wat a pig rite?) Lolx.. Today went to skool for 2 hrs of lab.. I ji tao late for skool lor.. Ji tao late for 5 mins like tt.. Ji tao not so bad lo.. Ji tao teacher oso late lor.. Mux be wondering how cum suddenly so many "Ji Tao" sia.. Cos i gt tis "Ji Tao" virus frm KaiLinG la.. She always "Ji Tao" here "Ji Tao" there.. Ji tao quite fan to hear the word "Ji Tao" rite? Haha.. After skool went to eat wif my class the ppl.. Today i was so quiet sia.. (Maybe i was jux too hungry?) Speak less den 10 sentences of words i tink.. Haix.. So sianx sia.. I wish holidays is tml liao.. Haha.. Den can go out havoc liao.. Haha.. Ji tao HAVOC lor.. =x Anyway.. Term test coming le.. Means holidays is round the corner lor.. Hehe.. It oso means tt i nid to go n study liao le.. My first term test.. I dowan to fail everything.. Maybe 1 or 2 will do? Haha.. I will try to pass all the la.. Btw.. I tink now my blog gt music liao le.. If u duno the song.. It is Lin Jun Jie's song.. The title is Dou Jiang You Tiao.. (Beri cute rite?) Tis song is so meaningful sia.. I love the lyics.. Ok la guys.. I tink i will jux end here le.. Going to touch up my NMM project.. Tml is the dateline liao le.. Cya guys.. Last word for you all.. Ji Tao Gd Luck To Those Having Tests Now!!! Haha..

maRcUs` (",)



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Monday, July 26, 2004

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*Eyes Half Close Half Open*

25/07/04
11.40pm

Haix.. Ytd did not update my blog.. Bcos slp until quite late wor.. Den went straight to work le.. So sry guys.. But ytd oso gt nth mux happen.. Onli tt Lorenz was not in gd mood lor.. Find faults in us.. Den i tio caught wif hp on my body.. Sianx half.. Sunday ar.. I tot i can go out n haf fun sia.. But last min hor.. LeeTian sms mi zX breaks wif qY leh.. Wa lan eh.. They jux stead for few wks onli leh.. How cum so fast gt prob liao? Haix.. After tt den i noe qY ex went to find her back.. zX was so heartbroken sia.. He told mi 3 times he stead hor.. 3 times oso gal ditched him leh.. Den i gt oso try to talk tt qY out.. Tok ar tok.. Until i tink of my ex liao leh.. But den i neber cry.. Cos i wan to forget abt her.. K-ster now alot of staffs leaving liao.. qY and KaiLinG... I will miss them sia.. Mux get on wif my life.. I tink i will jux end here le ba.. Beri tired.. Tml gt skool.. Mux study hard le.. Nex nex wk is my term test liao le.. *Jia You*

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Saturday, July 24, 2004

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Jux Woke Up Frm Nap... *Headache*

23/07/04
4.48pm

Haha... *Listen to FanFan de Dao Bu Liao* Hmm.. Is KaiLinG ask mi if i haf ma.. Den i went ard to ask my fren.. Without efforts.. I gt the file le.. It was beri nice sia.. Listening to it a "millions" time liao.. (I dl the song ytd de...) Lolx... Toking abt mp3s... There is 1 i like to introduce to u all.. The song is FanXiaoXuan - Qian Yi Shi.. I first listen was at where at? Oh ya.. Remb liao.. Is at KaiLinG de blog.. Den she send the song to mi.. Tt 1 i like it even more sia.. In fact i was in love wif it.. Jux like LinJunJie - Dou Jiang You Tiao.. Haha.. Enough of mp3s liao la.. Later some 1 went to report mi sia.. Lolx.. *Xiang Dai Duo Le* Ok.. Today first class at skool start at 8 sia.. Though early, time pass beri fast.. (Bcos i was late 15 mins?) Haha... Den on the spot i did the AFD and IFD diagrams sia.. (I so shen rite.. With the help of JieLin's work) -.- Ok den went to makan at the Business Food Court.. I oso duno y i always go there eat? Maybe our food court down for renovation and it is the nearest to us or some other reasons? Haha... Today hor... I was pai seh again.. Cos when i was buy western food rite.. Den JieLin was beside mi.. Den i press the chilli sauce on my plate.. Den gt those funny sounds den "JieLin" hu was beside mi luff.. Den i tot my beside was JieLin ma.. Den i smile at her back leh.. In the end the person beside mi was not JieLin but a stranger wearing same colour as her.. Wa Lao.. *Pai seh lor..* I quickly run back to my seat sia.. My fren still ask mi.. "Tt gal u noe 1 ar?" Lolx.. I jux keep luffing.. Hmm.. Rite after we finish our foods ar.. Den we went straight to the lab le.. Do the IISO stuffs.. Mux hand in today de.. Den Alvin came n lend my phone.. Den he started to zhi lian liao.. Go ard taking pics wif the classmates.. Bth him sia.. Den almost all gt the peace sign 1.. @@ already i wan to slap him.. Lolx.. He still can tell mi cute ma.. Wa Lan eh.. After the IISO lab ar.. I went back to hm le.. Did not go 4 Java tutorial.. Cos i scare i cant make it to work.. Cant late ani more le.. Already minus 1 day le.. Maybe tt will explain y i add the entry so early.. Cos later i will be working.. So the only time i haf is now lor.. Ok la.. Today the mood quite happy.. Cos later get to @@ Zhi Xiong, Lee Tian n Wei Liang... The gang of jokers lai de.. Work wif them beri happy de no matter how tired u r.. Haha.. Oh ya.. Mao LinG bdae coming.. So sad sia.. Cant attend.. Cos 31st gt work.. Try to take leave n attend? zZzz *Lost* Alrite la.. I guess i will end here.. Wad happen tonite i will write them tml? Off to bath le..

maRcUs` (",)



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Friday, July 23, 2004

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Hugging my bolster...

22/07/04
10.45pm

Hmm.. Today time is on my side? Time fly fast sia today.. Went to skool at 2pm to take a stoopid test which i tink i am going to fail? Haix.. So sad sia.. Actually all the qns all i noe the ans de.. Jux tt it is ALL mix up!!! Aiyo.. guess i haven slap myself.. *Piak* Oh ya... There was something i wan to share abt.. There was this gal hor.. Her name was Shirlyn.. She was frm my class de.. We noe each other for 5 wks le ba? Ok.. Only today i saw the real her sia.. She was beri ci ci wen wen at the start.. But today hor.. She was actually cracking jokes to mi leh.. N she is so lame!!! I did not expect her to be like tis sia.. Totally like different person sia.. It all started when we saw a gal nex block.. She was standing at the highest floor near the railings.. She den held her hands up.. Den we suspect she was crying lor.. Den trying to unwind her feelings or wat.. Den i started to lame as usual.. I say "I hope she will not xiang bu kai" She luff.. N guess wat she reply? "Dun worry la.. spiderman will save her de.." Lolx.. Tis 1 oso can link? Den we start to exchange jokes.. We were like competing sia.. 1 frm mi den her.. And so on.. Jie Lin was there luffing at our jokes.. We were luffing at our cold jokes lor until the teacher came n we haf the test.. Once finish i head hm straight away.. Once hm.. KaiLinG msg mi in msn.. N i told her some jokes frm Shirlyn.. She oso tink she is mux more lamer den mi.. *I admit defeat* Lolx.. I tink i will jux end here le.. Nth more to write abt today stuffs le.. Tml is another boring day at skool sia.. Skool end at 3... Hope time is on my side tml.. Betta still all the time..

maRcUs` (",)




| yawns @ 2:22 PM|

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Still in the sleepy mode...

22/07/04
11.20am

Did i forget to add a entry ytd? So forgetful mi sia.. Haha.. No la.. i was actually working.. (K-ster) Lorenz told mi tt there were not enough ppl working.. But when i reach there hor.. There were quite alot of ppl working lor.. i tot he dua mi sia.. But actually is there were 2 new guys working there.. 1 is Tim another is Wei Teck i tink.. Both get on wif us fine la.. neber give troubles.. Lolx.. back to the point.. Ah kien (bartender) took off ma.. Den no 1 takes care of the bar.. So ytd i do bar lor.. Quite ok la.. The prob is i 4get how to record le.. Lolx.. stoopid mi.. But in the end.. I ask Jeff lor.. He is oso a new guy lai de.. Cos he did bar 2 days straight ma.. Den the infos shld be fresh in his mind.. Haha.. Den he oso ask mi abt hall stuffs.. Cos he first time do hall ytd.. Lolx.. Ytd was Felicia Birthday... Once again... - Happy Birthday Felicia!!! -  Though too late.. But i wish her advanced liao le.. Haha.. They went to celebrate at Cha Xuan (Our head branch) Den saw KaiLinG.. She went down to sing (Actually is waiting for QiuYun? But QiuYun still nid her meh? ZhiXiong gt come down ma.. Lolx) Since i do bar hor.. She came to mi for a cup of milo.. Den only i realise frm QiuYun tt she loves milo so mux tt she can drink 8 cups a day? WoW... Tt a record settings by her.. Haha.. Oh ya.. I saw Wayne.. Haha.. Tt idiot.. i neber seen him 4 a long time liao.. Craps wif him lor.. Updating him abt our K-ster love life.. Lolx.. Tink of it.. I oso feel like luffing sia.. Ok.. Time was not on my side.. Time was passing so slow sia.. Haix.. So sad.. Reach hm abt 4 plus like tt.. Went to bath n straight to bed le.. After tt here i am.. sitting here typing.. *Tap Tap*  Later i 2 o'clock haf a class.. It is actually a case study which is a test i later on noe.. I guess i finish tis page n off i go n study le ba.. Den today the entry i guess i write again? Duno can ma.. Later try.. Gd Luck to whu r taking ur exams now!!!
 
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

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A Beri Moody Day Indeed...
 
20/07/2004
11.20pm
 
How cum i every days oso moody de?? Y cant 1 day be happy? Haix.. I am so FAN!!! Arghh!!! How i wish tml is end of the day? Den i will haf no more worries liao.. But i oso cant be so selfish oso.. Others need to live too.. I guess i jux haf to get on wif my life? Geez.. i hate it man.. Before nitez... Jie Lin sms mi not to go 4 the Java lecture den i will haf 1 more hr to slp? Talking abt Jie Lin.. Her birthday was today wor..  - Happy Birthday Jie Lin!!! -  Back to the point.. I agree lor.. Since ytd nitez i was so tired man.. (Busy making tis blog?)  So tis morning, i neber go for java lecture which i later on noe tt today's lecture gt attendance marked? Haix.. suan le ba.. But den i gt another surprise.. The NMM project we were supose to hand up today ar... has change the dateline le.. To NEX WK.. *yea!!* At least i was happy for tt moment onli? Today went back hm beri early.. On my way back hm, i was tinking of taking out my hp n sms her!!! Haix.. I wan to forget her!!! I really DO!! Someone taught mi a way tt is try not to contact her? Maybe tt 1 of the way of forgetting her ba.. Or maybe tt is jux 4 the time being? How i wish human brain is like the storage of data.. U wan tt memories.. U keep it.. If u dowan those unhappy times... U delete it.. Jux so simple.. Ok la.. i tink i will jux end here le.. Too tired to continue.. Jux too tired... Life jux goes on...
 
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Monday, July 19, 2004

-A Beri Moody Day...-

A Beri Moody Day...
 
19/07/2004
7.25pm
 
Haix.. A start of a new week.. Class start at 8 which is not a beri nice time.. It start off wif a boring tutorial wif a boring subject wif a boring teacher.. Today we cover on the goals of our life.. I feel tt everyone mux haf a goals in order to head on in the future.. For mi, it is actually beri simple de.. I jux wan to lead a simple life will do.. No worries at all.. If i could choose to live.. I would choose a desserted island wif my loves 1.. (",) Everything will be so nice!!! lOlx.. I dun tink tt impossible ba.. *Poke the bubbles wif a needle...* Back to real life ba... Today i saw a gal tt was so look-alike my ex.. Wa.. i tot she was.. I jux kept looking at her.. It was so pai seh when her fren told her some 1 was looking at her.. I quickly turn my head away and continue walking.. Looking at her reminds mi of the times i was wif her.. But it is already over le.. So no use broading abt it.. 1 mux learn to gif up tings which are not meant to be urs.. Ok la.. I tink i will end here today.. So sry if u tink tt it is so short as tis time my first entry in the blog.. Hope u can understand... I am so tired N hungry sia.. Go makan le.. Den do my NMM stuffs.. Tml mux hand them up de.. Gt to rush.. Maybe tt the kind of life we all r leading now.. But haf U ever ask urself.. Is tt the life we wan? Haix.. Maybe tt how life goes...
 
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